Generational anger

Please don't judge.

I've always struggled to regulate my emotions, particular anger, and being overwhelmed. My dad was very angry with me as a child, spanked me alot, locked me in my room crying for hours and decapitated my teddies, etc, when I was a child.

Now I'm a mum and obviously I want to do so much better for my LO. But I am finding myself getting overwhelmed and angry recently. This has resulted in my getting snappy at my husband alot, I broke a laptop this week in anger, and not often but I snapped at my 10 month old when he was whinging a lot and hit my head and cried in front of him. Something I do when I'm overwhelmed.

Yesterday, I thought maybe my son and my husband would be better if I just left them to live alone. I want to be better.

I used to have a therapist but she's £40 a session and i just can't afford that at the minute. I can't have medication because of medical issues. I've resigned up for nhs therepy, but it's never really been that helpful in the past. What else can I do ? :(

I need to be better.

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I’m so sorry your dad behaved like that towards you as a child 😢 Firstly, please give yourself a break, motherhood and especially the tiredness in the first year can evoke anger is the most chilled people in the world, I’ve definitely been more angry than usual and snappy towards my husband. It’s great that you recognise the feelings though, have you reached out to your health visitor for any support avenues? x

Aw I’m so sorry to hear about what you went through as a child. 😞

Take it one day, one hour at a time. Step away when you need a break to regulate your nervous system.
I’ve dealt with anger and Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) has helped me immensely in those moments. You can Google it for free worksheets and info.

Also- if you haven’t already, once you find Jesus, the Holy Spirit will help you become more gentle, kind, patient, and have better self control. 🙏🏻🩷 I’m praying for you!!!! You can do this!!! 🩷🩷

I'm so sorry to read you and your actual struggles.
Would you try to meditate, make some breathing exercises. There's plenty online and that may help you to regulate your system when you feel you are loosing it.
Therapy is always the best but yes... It's not always affordable. Online support may help you in some ways.

I have done online support groups. PSI has been super helpful for me. I was dealing with some anger issues when I first had my son 13 weeks ago. It since going and talking to other moms and seeing that I am not alone in how I feel has helped me manage my stressful moment better. I also do mindfulness activities from YouTube to help ground myself when I am not in a high stress moment so when I am I can regulate myself better.

Emotions Anonymous (EA) is a 12 step program that’s free and is similar to AA and SA. There’s online and in person meetings. It’s not a replacement for therapy but it’s a safe space to feel heard and seen by people experiencing similar things❤️there’s also CoDA, Co-Dependents Anonymous for people who struggle with interpersonal relationships, specifically family ones. I’ve been to both and both have been incredible for me when I couldn’t go to therapy

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When does it get better?

I was crying on the phone with the perinatal mental health team today and the lovely lady, bless her, kept assuring me that it gets better. I kept telling her I hope so because people have been saying that since having my LO and it just feels like it keeps getting worse. She assured me it gets better....

Rant/WWYD

My sister (youngest, 24) has two kids, 4 & 1, and i (oldest, 30) just have my one who’s 6mo old right now, so i ask her for advice or call her to vent about things sometimes. Well im tired of her turning around and telling my other family members that I’m “losing my sh*t.” Literally have not lost my sh*t nor have i ever freaked out to her about my baby, i just call her to talk and tell her what stage my baby is in or talk through how im feeling, but she chooses to tell people that im like a complete nutcase or something which worries me that my family is going to start being judgmental about me as a mother or looking at me funny like I’m some fragile ticking time bomb.

What would you do in this situation? I’m already pretty much decided that I’ll stop telling her anything about my struggles, but I’m almost at the point where i feel like it should be confronted because she, of all people, should understand what I’m going through.

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I’m going crazy. Baby born at 2.26kg. Slow to put on weight. This last week hasn’t put on any. Been trying to feed him at night and he’s not interested at all. Fast asleep. During day he will have 5 minute gulps and that’s it. He don’t cry for milk. I’ve got to keep offering to him. I try to offer it every hour but I don’t know what I’m doing. HV said nutrition comes after 5 minutes so I should pump first and then give him. I find it so hard. I tried to pump one boob nothing came. The other abit came. Tried giving him express he’s not interested in that too. Sometimes he will go for a longer a feed but not long at all. He’s 4 months and is currently 5.46kg. I have no family or friend support here and wish I had a cook, cleaner and nanny to help with everything so I can concentrate on the little one. I don’t know what’s wrong with him but I’m loosing it. It doesn’t help that my also stressed generally about my relationship and life circumstances. Any advice that will work. Any comfort you can give. I’m fed up. Is this regression - not feeding. He’s fast fast asleep. I’ve been trying to push the nipple in but that mouth is closed shut. I took some clothes off. Changed his nappy but he’s still asleep. Please help

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8 week old in sleeping bag for first time as big enough! Do you feed your child in the night whilst in the sleeping bag or taken them out, feed then transfer back to sleeping bag before putting down?

i just want someone to talk to😔😔😔😔

when things get hard i have nothing not any support from my partner im convinced he doesn’t even love me anymore but thats another story
I have a 3 yo and a 2yo that are in bed sleeping only just now. I have a 1 yo that’s been sleeping from 8 o’clock to 10 o’clock. I just gave her her milk and she would’ve gone back to sleep if it wasn’t that
I lost her dummy earlier in the day when I went out
so now she won’t go back to sleep and she won’t accept any of the other dummy’s i have!😔😔and it’s 10 o’clock and I’m gonna be up until 3 o’clock with her and when she does want to go to sleep i won’t have any dummy to give her she will accept and she won’t sleep without it i just wanna cry 😔i have nobody to talk to and i feel so alone i get no support from anybody i’m so tired and i don’t feel well to top it off😔

Has anyone died their kids hair a fun color and have any recommendations for kid friendly hair dye that actually works and stays in the hair for a bit? 👀👀👀

She has 3b brown hair and wants kpop demon hunter purple