P0rn?

so me and my bd have been together for 8 years and sex ISNT the same anymore he developed a really bad p0rn addiction and literally has always been a problem definitely has dropped my self confidence knowing he HAS to watch that stuff and seeing his favorite type is latinos with big butts and boobs and i’m skinny and black? so you see the problem with that.. but when we have sex he HAS to watch it will play it on the tv or his phone and i literally can’t remember the last time i had a orgasm and i’m always so dry i’ll give him like rub burn on his penis all the time? which i hate but i genuinely feel im just never in the mood when theirs all these different ladies he’s having to watch while we have sex and when i am in the mood still dry as ever idk if im messed up in the head at this point and cant get wet like that anymore or my body is rejecting him? what would yall do? and ive talked to him about it and he stopped for a little and does it again and even ask for threesomes??? which i feel our relationship is breaking that in his head that would help us connect but i don’t think so and think it’s just a excuse to be with another woman and mind you he’s cheated on me with like 10 different girls who NONE look like me 😔

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I'm so not meant to be a mother.

My kids won't listen to me get into stuff when they know they aren't supposed to. Telling me no all the time. Only listen to their dad. Laughs when I correct them. I spend most of my time yelling at them because they don't want to listen to me at all. My husband said that I shouldn't have kids. And I am believing him on it. I was never meant to be a mother now. I won't hurt my kids I just want to disappear and make everyone else's lives better without me.

One and done… or not?

32ftm. I’m starting to feel so much pressure to have another baby soon as I wean from breastfeeding so they can be close in age and be friends, but I don’t feel ready for pregnancy and newborn trenches again 😭 my husband and I are all we’ve got. Having just one baby without a village has been really tough. Am I being unrealistic wanting another one soon?

Baby #2??

I really want baby number 2 and am thinking of doing it via IUI as a solo mama!
Has anyone had any experiences with it 👀

Tests

So I had a blood test at the drs bc I keep getting positive tests when the blood test was negative what could this mean? Hubby says the tests are negative and said he can’t see anything. Negative image down below.

Am I pregnant?

I lightly spotted almost 5 days ago, which is not common for me before my period.
My period was supposed to come today. I should have tested in the morning but its 5:30pm.
Is there a second line??

Anyone have this happen before?

We were not trying to conceive, used protection and had sex on week 2 of my cycle (accidentally on my peak ovulation day). Week 3 we had Flu A. Week 4 my period did not come (it’s very regular). I tested and it was negative (2 different brands).
What should have been week 2 of my next cycle (now 6 weeks post last period), I had light red/ pink spotting for one day when I wiped. The following week, I tested again, still negative, but this time almost all the dye was in the negative space, which I’ve never seen happen before. The area where it shows one horizontal line for negative and a plus sign for positive, the horizontal line was super faded at the 3 minute mark, and the negative vertical line in the next window was VERY dark. Now I’m on week 8 of all this, period did not show up yesterday. Nothing in my life has changed (no additional stress, no other illness, no changes in diet or exercise, etc).

Has anyone gone through this and NOT been pregnant? I’m super nervous as we thought we were done having kids.

PS. I know I should go get a blood test, does anyone know if urgent care will do that? I’m past being convinced by a pee test.