Hello,
I am scheduled to get my first cerclage after losing my baby during my first pregnancy due to what doctors suspect as an incompetent cervix. My anxiety has been through the roof during this pregnancy. Every discomfort or uncomfortable feeling, I feel like something may be wrong and I should go to the ER because what I experienced during my first pregnancy . For the mommies that have had a similar experience, how do you deal with these feelings and overcome them ?
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Second by second. Just remind yourself over and over and over again that this is a different pregnancy. If you’re religious, pray every time you worry. Force yourself to dream about it working out. Daydream about your life with this baby. It’s a hard road. I lost my first son for the same reason last June. Currently holding his rainbow brother
Awwwwww that just made me so emotional ❤️❤️. Thank you for your kind words. Navigating a pregnancy after loss is so hard. Every little pain I feel I want to go to the doctors. I get my cerclage in 2 weeks. Hopefully once that happens, my anxiety will get better. Prayer will definitely help me get through these feelings as well. Congratulations on your rainbow baby ❤️

Hey! I had my rainbow baby may 29th 2024, he’s 14 months now, your message felt like it would’ve came from me when I was pregnant with him, it was tough, I was excited when I found out but weeks later I found myself disconnecting from my child, and felt a feeling of despair i didnt know why I felt that way, I felt terrible about it everyday until I was about 14 weeks, and saw him on the ultrasound for the first time and realized it was just my fear, it’s honestly so scary and I can’t say I always could shake out of it, I spent days praying, and talking to my baby asking him to stay in there a little longer which helped, I journaled to get my feelings out, and when you feel like something may be wrong or not normal either go to the hospital or talk to your doctor, it doesn’t matter how big or small something is, at the least you’ll get the reassurance that you need. I had quite a few scared in my pregnancy but was able to carry my baby long enough for him to be born healthy

I never thought it would be possible to carry a baby until then but I did, there is hope, I know it might seem impossible but it’s more than possible, if you have any questions or need someone to talk to my messages are always open

Go in whenever you want. I know I did. I wa super paranoid. Evaded up on hospital bedrest at 26 weeks and we delivered him at 30 weeks because they were worried he was getting caught in his umbilical cord. Terrifying to deliver another premature baby but it worked out. I say that so say that your instincts are still important. If i hadn’t requested a cervical check at that appointment (past the time when they still check it) I may have had a stillborn. My cervix was fine but they hospitalized me for funneling and while there they noticed dips in his heart rate. YOU GOT THIS MAMA! Praying for you and your sweet baby. I hope you can allow yourself mental peace to enjoy this pregnancy in the way you deserve 🙏🏽

I was extremely diligent once I had my Transabdominal Cerclage because no one believed me when I said that was in - preterm - labor with my Transvaginal Cerclage in the ER resulting in the cerclage tearing my cervix after being in labor for two days, then I waited for antibiotics for 14 hours and never received them, so I went septic and started dying, my twins were emergency evacuated and cremated, and I went to the ICU.
It took about a year of physical and mental healing to prepare myself and regroup; my husband also needed that time. The trauma wrecked my body and also made it so that I could only get a permanent Transabdominal Cerclage. I successfully delivered a healthy baby last month after a pretty uneventful pregnancy. I was very diligent about everything, went to the ER whenever I needed, and I called the maternity hotline provided by my insurance for every question and concern, just as I had done before.
You have to listen to yourself, respond however you see fit, know exactly what your goal is.

For me, I was and am willing to do whatever it takes, but that also gives me my boundaries for healing to prepare to continue towards my goal. Some people don't want to keep going through the cerclage struggle, but it is a deeply personal choice that should be made to support what you truly want. The anxiety will lend itself to whatever you redirect it towards.