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First Trimester Mummies

Think I’m having a mmc and just need to write it out

Hey ladies. So I had my positive tests on the 2/8/25 clear blue x 2 and a digital showing 1-2 weeks. No real symptoms which was very different to my son, I had HG and was the sickest person ever. Took a while to get 2-3 (I know I know I shouldn’t have). Was referred to the recurrent losses clinic and booked in for a scan on Friday 22nd. I started spotting very very lightly on and off, no pain or anything too scary but I had this with my son from 4w so wasn’t too worried at this point. Symptoms didn’t progress and the digital weeks indicator hasn’t progressed past 2-3 and I think I took that about 2 weeks ago now.. so on Friday I had a very silent scan and it’s not my first rodeo I knew what was coming. She said that there’s no sign of a pregnancy matching my dates (7+1) from my LMP but again this happened with my son, scanned and nothing there, prepped for a loss and then a week later a beautiful flicker. So I asked if there was any indication of a pregnancy because I’m still positive and I’ve not passed anything that would be enough for it to have completely gone as it’s just light spotting. She said there was a thickening of the womb which would suggest a pregnancy of approximately 5weeks but couldn’t really say. So I had my first HCG bloods Friday afternoon and my second will be tomorrow (bloody BH weekend..) I am fully expecting bad news tomorrow, and I don’t really know why I’m writing this but yeah. It’s rubbish and I’m feeling so sad. It’s almost harder because I had a little miracle with my son and that gives a slight glimmer of hope but also lightening doesn’t strike twice.. thanks if you got this far x