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I feel lost, alone and quite frankly scared

My ex and i had been together almost 2 years. Last january we lost a baby at 15 weeks. And im due to have my current baby next week. We struggled in our relationship due to his parents causing issues and him having no backbone to stand up for me.
I told him to move out back in august because i just couldnt live with him being so immature and such a mummies boy, begged him to change and grow up and nothing has changed.. im not even sure he actually loved/loves me if im honest.
I ended it with him a couple of weeks ago now for my own sake. I realised while waiting for him to change i was the one actually changing, im not the same person i was before i met him and i really regret allowing a man into mine and my little girls life. I still love him and its causing so much hurt and confusion.
Im going into hospital next week to have our baby by c section. thankfully i have my mum coming with me but when im home thats it im on my own. I raised my daughter alone and all i xan think of is how lonely it was and im dreading it this time again especially has i have to be strong for 2 little ones.
I dont really have many people around me, my mums sicks so i dont like putting on her, my best friend passed away 2 years ago amd my other friends have their own lives and i rarely see or speak to them.
I really hoped this time was going to be different, i hoped he would realise thr damage he was causing and sort himself out. I hoped to finally have that family, but instead im trapped again on my own. I know i left him but the alternative was staying with emotionally immature narrcisist and my children deserve better.
SIA for the depressing post, i just feel like i have no one and dont know how im going to get through