Anyone else full of doubts now?

Hi all,
I'm just going to preface this by saying I've not enjoyed pregnancy at all and I've felt super guilty about it the whole time. The third trimester is just really taking its toll on me though, I've got awful pelvic girdle pain which I've had for at least the last 5 weeks (I'm currently 37 weeks), I'm tired, I'm irritable and I'm feeling really down about my appearance at the moment. I've put on quite a bit of weight and I hate looking at myself in the mirror now.
This last couple of weeks I've just been feeling so full of anxiety. This was very much a planned and wanted pregnancy (it's my second pregnancy, my first ended in miscarriage) but I'm not a maternal person at all, I've never had an interest in babies and I'm terrified I'm just going to be a useless mother. I don't have my own mum to help me or guide me, I lost her when I was little and my dad never remarried so I feel like I've never even had a good female role model.
I'm just starting to panic that I'm about to ruin my life and my relationship and wondered if anyone else is feeling this way. If it's just nerves because I'm so near the end now. I want more than anything to fall in love with my baby as soon as I see them but I'm terrified I'm going to feel nothing and then feel like the worst mother on the planet.

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I get these exact feelings sometimes and then other times I think I’m going to prove myself and people wrong and be the best mum! Its okay not to be maternal until you have your own and think you won’t know what to do, but most people don’t know what to do and just wing it. I am sure you will make a great mum and always here for a chat! X

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