Leaving son's father

My son is 8 months old and his dad choked me out, then picked me up and dropped me on the ground this morning.. I am so shocked and upset.. it started as an argument and insults.. he pushed me, I hit him he dropped me to the floor and that's when what I stated above happened. All of my family is 22hrs away, I only work once a week, he doesn't give me any money. He is also financially abusive, works literally all the time yet always tells me there is no money.(wouldn't even buy me tampons) I get no help, respect, acknowledgement for all I do in our home and for our son. I was willing to stick with him through everything until this morning. That is my line.. idk what to do. he has always wanted to be a dad and I dont want to take that from him but I just can't do this.. any advice helps a lot.. ty🙃

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Am i the only one?

Hi Mums, this is the first time i will be openly speaking about this because ive been trying to push it back or hide it but i need to know if this is normal?

My baby boy is almost 7 months ols. We had a really difficult time in NICU for a week when he was born and i was also in the hospitalbed. I feel like since im home i havent been able to to complety chill the fuck out. I am always on alert, i feel like i cant rest. I have no friends or family here. My baby is exclusively breastfed and will not drink outside of his bedroom so when we go outside i always have to rush to get back home when he cries. The furthest ive been is 10 mins from home. Havent sat down at a cafe or restaurant. Just shops like sainsbury and b&m. I feel like my everyday is the same routine. Wake up play with him have a walk for a bit go shops and come home put him to bed, clean and sleep. I dont have time to make myself look nice. When will my life be normal? Im so scared this is my life now. I have no one to talk about this. I cant imagine going to the city centre with him it will be madness. Please, does anyone else have a similar situation? HELP. xx a really tired exhausted mum.

Emotional abuse

It’s been pointed out to me that what I’ve been experiencing in my relationship is emotional abuse. After a year and a half of manipulation and gaslighting, things are finally starting to make sense, but it’s also overwhelming to process.

What makes it even harder is knowing that from the outside, he’s seen and known as such a kind and good person and I’m afraid no one will believe me. Right now, I feel completely drained, like I’m carrying a constant weight, with this tight, anxious feeling in my chest that won’t go away.

I’m still trying to find my footing and understand what comes next, but I needed to say this out loud. 😔

Funny EC Moment

So my sister visited yesterday and I didn’t think much of it when I went to offer the potty to my 12 week old. She walked into the hallway and sees me holding my baby essentially in the toilet bowl and asked “What the hell are you doing?!” I’ve never considered what it looked like up until that point so I asked her to take a photo of what she saw. It does kind of look like I’m flushing him lol. She thinks that it’s too early to be doing anything like this but I’m confident in my decision as he does go potty, I am getting catches, and he’s even started copying the grunting noise I do now. Just a silly little moment

Weaning

So I thought at 6 months it was just about taste etc so I’ve been doing Ella’s kitchen pouches & he tried avocado.
He is happy to be spoon fed & loves attempting to throw the bowl across the room.

I didn’t realise I should be on my way to breakfast lunch & dinner….

Any advice?? I feel like I’m letting my baby down and putting him behind

I peaked 😔

I got really angry at my 4 year old, threw the tooth brush and stormed out of the room. He went to bed crying and I didn’t go to him.

He came out of his room crying at one point and begged me to come back, but I sat him on my lap, hugged him and explained I’m too angry to go back into the room to put him to sleep. He begged me crying again over and over, and I just kept saying I loved him, we’re still best friends, but I can’t come back in. He then kicked me, so I shut the door and let him cry himself to sleep.

I know this horrible and I feel like the worst person. I know I’m going to wake up tomorrow with the worst feelings and guilt, but right now, I’m so fucking fed up of this life. Everything is a battle, there is never a time we can just do the thing and today it peaked for me.

Just ranting

Baby wont settle with partner

My 5 week old cried every time I give him to my partner who is the dad. Usually within 2 minutes even if he’s awake or asleep. He’s been like this since he was about a week old. My partner thinks it’s because we’re combi feeding and that I need to pick one but I don’t think it is. Anyone else had this and found a way for me to not be the sole parent? We have a 4 year old too so I need to be able to give him attention too sometimes and not have to shower either crying in the background