I peaked 😔
I got really angry at my 4 year old, threw the tooth brush and stormed out of the room. He went to bed crying and I didn’t go to him.
He came out of his room crying at one point and begged me to come back, but I sat him on my lap, hugged him and explained I’m too angry to go back into the room to put him to sleep. He begged me crying again over and over, and I just kept saying I loved him, we’re still best friends, but I can’t come back in. He then kicked me, so I shut the door and let him cry himself to sleep.
I know this horrible and I feel like the worst person. I know I’m going to wake up tomorrow with the worst feelings and guilt, but right now, I’m so fucking fed up of this life. Everything is a battle, there is never a time we can just do the thing and today it peaked for me.
Just ranting
Leaving son's father
My son is 8 months old and his dad choked me out, then picked me up and dropped me on the ground this morning.. I am so shocked and upset.. it started as an argument and insults.. he pushed me, I hit him he dropped me to the floor and that's when what I stated above happened. All of my family is 22hrs away, I only work once a week, he doesn't give me any money. He is also financially abusive, works literally all the time yet always tells me there is no money.(wouldn't even buy me tampons) I get no help, respect, acknowledgement for all I do in our home and for our son. I was willing to stick with him through everything until this morning. That is my line.. idk what to do. he has always wanted to be a dad and I dont want to take that from him but I just can't do this.. any advice helps a lot.. ty🙃