Feel like I’m stuck in a rut

I feel the EXACT same; SAHM mama for almost 2 years now, me and baby daddy are also trying for a 2nd baby, and I have lost all my confidence and motivation to do anything but my mommy thang. And even sometimes I don’t wanna do that mommy shit either, I just want a day to myself, but I haven’t gotten it yet since my baby daddy works Monday though Friday like…12 hours sometimes more a day…and really likes his weekends to be stress free so I try to provide that kind of environment for him. But it’s like damn where’s my stress free day? But at the same time do I deserve a “stress free” day? All I do is watch my own child. It’s so sad sometimes the thoughts that run through my head when I’m just doing what women have always done, but in today’s society it’s a lil different. I don’t know maaaan, dunno how to fix it, but I do empathize.

I am also in the same boat with a 2, almost 3, year old. I also struggle to get my husband to understand what it's actually like, because to him, it's a breeze in the park. And like, it kind of is compared to a "regular" job because I would rather be home with my kid than be at a job, 100%. BUT the KEY difference is how absolutely demanding it is 24/7. It slowly eats away at you. There are no off days, no sick days, no vacation days. You begin to lose yourself in the mundane, the never-ending list of chores, the messes, the tantrums, the stress, the loss of a real social life. And now that my LO is getting older, it seems each age brings on a new set of challenges. Yes, she IS more capable of communicating and doing more things herself now, but no one prepared me for how toddlerhood transitions into being so much more emotionally demanding, unlike how physically demanding the newborn to infant phase was.