Just needing support.
April 24th, I made the mistake of not watching where I was going, thankfully it was after I already put my baby girl in her car seat so she wasn’t with me when it happened, and I was ran over by a truck in front of my house. It initially hit me and knocked me down but the back tire grabbed my right leg and pulled me under it. I thought that was it. That was the final moments I had with my family on the way to the hospital. My husband breaking every traffic rule to get me there because I didn’t think I had time to wait for an ambulance. In reality if it was my time, I didn’t want to go in front of our home, I didn’t want that for them. I just remember holding my little girls hand while she babbled away telling my husband and her how much I loved them, telling my husband to promise me that he’ll have her know who I was and that I never wanted to leave her. I ended up in the icu followed by multiple hospital stays and more appointments to come. I have multiple broken ribs, a broken back, I had internal bleeding from my liver, a collapsed lung and severe damage to my right leg. That they are still unsure the extent of the damage it has caused to it. Now I’m navigating being a mom, barely able to hold my baby, technically not even supposed to carry her. And be a wife when just getting up and getting myself dressed takes every bit of strength I have. So household chores and dinners everything I devoted myself to be being a wife and a mother was stripped from me. Everyday is a struggle. My husband has stepped up to do both roles as best as he could but you know how that can be. I feel lonely, lost, useless and a burden. But at that same time I’m so blessed to be here to feel these things just because of this little girl I thought I had to say goodbye to forever.
Breastfeeding at 4yo
So, i am not one to judge but i was put in a position where i couldn’t explain properly something to my toddler.
To put you in the picture, i take my daughter to this baby class since she was a couple weeks, now she is 4 and we are still going until she start school in September. The thing is there’s this boy in class with us who is the same age as her but who was still breastfeed in front of us. I never actually cared, it was their business, she can breastfeed him until he is 18 if she wants 🤷🏻♀️
But my daughter started asking questions about it, why is he still having milk like a baby, or is it normal to drink mummy’s milk and if she can have some…i didn’t know how to phrase my answer as first of all i was worried she would ask or point out he was a baby in front of them, and i also don’t want her to think it is very common to keep breastfeeding even when you are going to “big school”
How would you handled this situation? xx
“Cry it out”
The idea of letting my baby (6 months old, now) cry-it-out is keeping me up, tonight. Every doctor’s appointment, the doctors suggest that method and make me feel like I’m not doing a good enough job with my baby because he wakes up every 4-5 hours (rarely 3 hours) in the night. Really he wakes up just one time in the night, technically. Thinking about him getting red-faced, tears and snot streaming, him screaming- not understanding what’s going on, until he’s too stressed makes me sick to my stomach. But apparently I’m doing him and me an injustice by not sleep training? I just don’t know what to do.
