Feeding
I breastfed my daughter for a year, she had tongue tie and we had thar released, our journey was hard but we got there. I now have a 6 week old son who I breastfeed and it's been a battle, he struggles latching and staying on etc it got a bit better and I definitely have milk, but it's been very hard at times. I'm now at the point where I dread feeding times, it's constantly on my mind, when did I last feed? How long did he feed? Is he going to be uncomfortably upset during or after or both. Etc etc it's a real battle I know he's doing what babies do cluster feed, fuss etc but I just cant manage it. I actually feel like rubbing away. I feel like a failure at everything. I'm like a stuck record going on about it all time. My husbands getting annoyed with me. I just this minute given up breastfeeding as I was crying. Getting annoyed etc it's not fair on my baby. So I got a ready made formula bottle and given him that, although he still had trouble latching on bottle but he did take it.
Why am I still feeling like this and not relieved has taken a bottle. I really wanted to enjoy breastfeeding but I can't. I also don't know why I can't feel good about bottle feeding, when I know it will help us both. I just can't rationalise.
Also how do I just stop making milk if I don't breastfeed?