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If I were in this situation I would join a big church, even if I wasn't really a church person. It's the fastest place to find community support in our country. Look for one that has nursery care during church events and make friends with anyone you'd feel comfortable being around your kids. Churches do meal trains for new parents sometimes as well which might help with the immediate work load. Also message me if you want support from afar. I'm due with my second in September and also have no family or local friends support, but my dad helped us with a postpartum doula for the first month.

Typically there is also a greeter at the front door who can help you know what to do. Check the website for when the service starts and go fifteen minutes early and people will introduce themselves and tell you, like, whether your eldest is expected to join you for part of the service or whether they'll be in the nursery the whole time and where it is and how to check them in.