Baby Blues??

I felt like this until my daughter was one it’s definitely normal

Yes! Super normal, people just expect you to pretend it’s not though. Your whole life has just completely changed overnight. Yes you were preparing during pregnancy but also there’s no way you can actually prepare for the reality of everything changing. I have three and I adore them and they truly bring me so much happiness but I still crave waking up with zero responsibilities and being able to do simple tasks without 50 side quests added in and little people asking me why I’m doing it and can they have a drink and actually their really bored. You spent however many years living the life you created and now you’ve spent 4 weeks in this new version of yourself and with someone solely relying on you. The adjustment takes time. You don’t sound ridiculous at all, you sound like an incredible Mum who’s overwhelmed and probably really tired and having a huge hormone crash. Give yourself grace 🤍

I’m the same, excited for our second baby but dreading the newborn phase/ first few months where I’ll be the primary care giver and can’t do as much as I’m used to. Different people love different stages of parenthood, it will get better! And it’s okay to feel this way :) babywearing was one thing that helped me feel more like myself because it allowed to me do what I wanted to do with my baby, and focusing on the things that you do enjoy. I read my own books aloud, did exercises while my baby was awake, listened to podcasts when on walks and baby was sleeping, had wild conversations “with” my baby when they were awake (I remember explaining photosynthesis to my 6w old in the pram and googling everything I forgot during the walk lol).
Do what you need to to make the best of this and know that it will get so much better :)