Dramatic?

Hate even talking about this but I am a FTM really struggling. I cry most days and was recently diagnosed with PPD. My partner knows this as I am open and honest with him. He has been so supportive and helps with everything regarding me and baby. However, yesterday I saw that on his Instagram he was looking at videos of half naked girls. I’m honestly so upset and I know it’s not really “wrong” but feeling the lowest I have ever felt and postpartum and knowing that’s what he was looking at really hurt me. Am I being dramatic?

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9 days pp and exclusively breastfeeding help 🥲

I am a ftm exclusively breastfeeding my 9 day old baby. I've been having a couple struggles/'problems'. To keep this post somewhat short I'll make bullet points. I'm just looking for any advice or similar situations and what you did?
● when trying to latch him he waves about and shoves his hands in his face and mouth stopping me from getting anywhere near his mouth and then gets frustrated he's not got a boob in his mouth (goes on for 5 to 10 mins sometimes and he gets really frustrated, and between juggling him and my boob I can't hold his hands out the way)
● the first 5 days of latching were amazing and had no problems but now he will fuss and struggle to latch and when he finally does he either falls asleep super quick (we tickle him, cold wet wipe and strip him down and he still just falls asleep), he does dream feed but these are usually super short and I feel like its not enough for him or he pops off within the first minute or two and cries because he's not got the boob in his mouth and then struggles to get latched, then pops off again when he does manage. It's a vicious cycle.
● doesn't wake up for feeds day and night time. I'm having to wake him up if he's asleep. Gives hunger cues when he's awake.
● over the last few days he will only take 1 boob for 10 mins, sometimes this satisfies him till 3 hours later (which is when I wake and feed him if he's asleep, if hes awake he'll start showing hes hungry by then) but then sometimes he's hungry again very soon after. I just worry he's not getting enough or that i can't figure out when it's comfort or milk he wants.
I feel clueless and getting really emotional over this whole situation because I know we're both trying so hard I can see that he is I just can't get it figured out. I know this is all probably very trivial but it's really getting to me 🙃
Pic of my sleepy bubba for tax 💙

Bottles

What bottles did everyone use? Im stuck between mam bottles and tommee tippee🩵

The thought of packing my hospital bag is overwhelming me 😮‍💨✨ FTM

I’m feeling so overwhelmed in terms of now needing to pack a hospital bag, for me and baby.

I have no idea how big my baby is or will be. I dont know what the weather will be like so probably will just pack vests and long sleeve baby grows. I only have 1 tog swaddle but thought I could layer baby up underneath.

Then for me, I’m no where near ready. I barely have any postpartum goodies, need nurseling bras and breast feeding friendly pjs. I feel I have so much to still organise and sort for this…

I just want to shop and try on because I have no idea my size now really. But there just no maternity or breastfeeding clothes in store. So frustrating. Currently shopping on Amazon, and even looking on Vinted.

Kind of wish my mom could just do this for me, never mind I’m the mom now …😮‍💨😅

So tired and have no energy to sort this out and search. 🥲🥲

Nap times

How long are your babies napping for in the day?
I told someone my baby can sometimes have 3 hour naps and they were surprised?

It’s not all the time, sometimes if she does have a 3 hour nap she usually fusses around the next one. I’m not happy to wake her though, if she’s content then I’m content and I can chill or get more things done around the house x

Last nights, night shift

I really don’t know what to do about this, little one does not like to be wet (understandable) once a drop hits the nappy she start’s screaming uncontrollably, when changing her she starts pooing, sometimes I use 4-5 nappies in one setting thinking she is done each time and everytime I put on a new one she 💩 again. I was also blessed with a handful of 💩last night trying to save my bed and that is her clothes all smeared too, some of these bags has 2-3 nappies in them all from one night.

Not too worried about how many nappies it is, it’s just the stress of her constant screaming and it takes so long to calm her down and she keeps pooing. Any ideas are welcome 🙏🏼

Weird, or not?

Our LO is 17 months. Typically, after dinner I take her up to the bathroom for a bath, and dad does dishes. The other day I offered to swap, assuming he would enjoy bath time. He told me he doesn’t want to give her baths because it’s “weird” for him to be giving her a bath because she’s a girl. I could understand if she were old enough to be bathing herself, but she’s not even 2. I find it really odd that he thinks that it’s “weird” to give his child a bath. Is this a red flag? Should I be concerned?