Cut off from the world?
Hi can anyone relate to virtually being cut off from the world because you are so busy and tired as a mother? I have a 2 and a 3 year old, due with my third baby in 3 weeks and I see other people posting things in social media but I can't be bothered reading or looking at any of this. My emails can often go unread, even important ones like notices etc. When I receive letters in the mailbox I often procrastinate opening them because I feel like I won't be able to focus on the content so I search for a time when I feel like I am ready to take in so much information, potentially about bills or letters from health visitors. Health visitors calling me to arrange appointments at my home to see how I am doing are one of the most dreadful things for me because I just can't be bothered having a stranger at my home taking my time and leaving without giving any help. Other people go on protests, position themselves politically, follow the news but I swear there could be the 3rd world war breaking out and I would just find it hard to care about the politics because I still have to chase dirty nappies, nap times and I would still feel tired and overstimulated with my family life alone.
As a child and teenager I used to always be super spiritual , always thinking about the higher concepts, I was very religious and prayed all day. I even started writing a book at 16 about some of my insights on things. I was about to start studying psychology and criminology but very soon I married and instantly got children and it feels like the whole side of my higher self was shut down and I completely lost touch with it because I have to rush from one snack time to the other, from one bath time to another etc so spirituality feels out of place and reach. A few years ago if I read in the news about women in Afghanistan being treated worse than animals I would feel so much heat and passion and would feel like I need to do something but nowadays I genuinely don't have the energy to even care about this, like I am not capable of empathy anymore. All people around me and worldwide talk about the wars happening and I am so out of touch with all of this. Is this a normal thing, other moms experience this too?