First time mom to a 14 month old. Didn’t have the best pregnancy her dad didn’t make it easy on me . Trying to heal from postpartum depression & trauma.. cheating and abuse I endured. Grieving what could’ve been my family. I don’t even know who I am anymore outside of being a mom. Don’t have much of a village , I’m overwhelmed. Some days are better than others but today is one of those days where I’m just wishing that someone had my back. I think if anyone hugged me long enough I’d burst into tears . Motherhood is so lonely. Whenever I say I’m not okay people literally ignore me because “I’m strong” what will it take for someone to actually see and hear me
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So proud of you for leaving him ❤️

My heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry you are going through all this. I know it's easier said than done but try and get the support you need. Maybe find a mom group. If you need someone to chat, feel free to message me

Sending hugs 🫂. I totally relate it’s so overwhelming doing it alone. I also relate to telling ppl how tired you are n they don’t take it seriously. It hurts not having a village especially from people who know what’s it like being a mom.
It’s like outside of community I’m craving companionship. My heart literally aches and I hate it so badly. I left because I didn’t want my baby thinking any kind of abuse is normal. I’ve tried “dating” or just talking to guys and I’m so turned off by everything . People who I thought were my friends or family just feels weird.. I’m a few blocks away from family members and I still am lonely , nobody truly understands ppd and just looks at it as me overreacting. I’ll often hear stories about them being single mothers and instead of help it feels and sounds more like “I suffered , now it’s your turn” I don’t feel the love at all . Trying to find new friends and family makes me feel so low .. btw thank you ladies 🤧💗

I’m with you. I hear you. It ain’t easy at all. Especially when you have no village. I’m here if u want to chat

I see you I hear you and feel the same way