Birth trauma

Anyone else have a traumatic birth that they are struggling to get over?

My little dude is 4 weeks old today and I still feel like I’m struggling to process his birth. I was induced at 38 weeks due to late complications in pregnancy. I had the propess and hormone drip. My labour was 56 hrs in total, 25 hrs active, 3 hrs pushing, 2 failed epidurals and then emergency c section. I also had a nasty infection during my labour but they still kept it going for another 7 hrs before deciding to do the section. By the time it got to pushing I just had no energy, felt like I failed my boy. I ended up in recovery for 4 hours after because I wasn’t responding well after the surgery and couldn’t even hold my son, I was so unwell. Then I was taken to the ward and just… had a newborn to look after since.

The lack of processing time, sleep deprivation and baby blues are just a perfect storm aren’t they. Guess I’m just reaching out to anyone who might understand. Last few weeks have been hard.

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Something similar happened to me, due to too much swelling etc they induced me at 39 weeks, I went in on May 2nd at 12pm, started the pills they put in ur bottom lip at 3pm. Did all the doses and no progress. Around 11am on the third they did the epidural and pit. first it worked but woke up 2am on the fourth to excruciating pain. Actual pushing contractions but little prog. Epidural failed around 2:30am they topped me up. I pressed the button but at 3:15 am it failed again no pain meds but a full bag. Okay fine doctor came in I had to get my water broken. They send me into a nice pain medicated nap. Woke up 7am I was in excruciating and I mean bad pain again. Nice epidural shot nap. Wake up I feel like my insides are being ripped apart around 3pm. ATP I’m 7cm dilated and they ripped out my epidural because I was numb chest up. (Shifted) by that point I’m begging just for a c section I couldn’t do it. I was so exhausted atp. And the midwife I hated and asked not to be on shift for me

She decides to try to see if my cervix has any give and try to push at it/stretch it excuse me that shit hurt, Around 5 PM I’m literally begging for a C-section because I’m so tired and exhausted 530 they have me start practice pushing like actually pushing 9 1/2 cm dilated. They decide I need another epidural anesthesiologist comes in misplaces twice put it in right the third time or so I thought about 6:30 Doctor comes in the actual Doctor convinces me to start pushing at this point cause I’m begging for a C-section. I go OK 7:09 baby girl was born. With assistance from the vacuum come to find out why it was so hard for her to properly come down and everything was because she had shoulder dysplasia. I don’t remember from them saying she’s about to crown until she was placed on my chest, they ask if my fiancé wants to cut the cord and I go no I want white and pulsing. They tell me she’s been out for at least five or six minutes. I came to as my placenta was coming out to my mom on

If it would help you can request a debrief with the hospital where they can discuss your birth with you, might help you to be able to talk through it and ask them questions. It's very normal to still be struggling, it is definitely worth reaching out to your health visitor or midwives for help if needed as you're still under their care currently.
I had a traumatic birth too (neglected to check me after inducing, propess worked too well, over contracted and nearly gave birth on the induction ward. Then went on to have an almost 2l postpartum hemorrhage which I think was due to them leaving to propess in until I was 10cm dilated) and although I have better days now at 6 weeks PP I definitely have moments or triggers that set me off. You're not alone 🖤

I had a c section after attempts to be induced with the balloon and went all the way up to level 18 on pitocin. I also had to fast on ice chips once a shift then I was told I’d have a c section. My son was put into the NICU and I couldn’t see him the first few days. The traumatic part was the trial and error and all of a sudden having a c section

Hi, so sorry to hear you had a difficult birth. What helped me was reading the birth report again. I know what happened because I was there and I could never forget it, but just reading it, felt different.
I don’t what it’s called, but you can do a rebirthing bath.
Set up your bedroom how you would have like your birthing room to be.
Let your partner/midwife/ mom/ friend bath the baby and put them on your bare chest while wet and just soak up that feeling. I had candles and the playlist I never got to play in hospital 😊and it was beautiful

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