I find myself getting quite agressive with my children

Please be kind as I am struggling and looking for help because I hate it!
I have two young children and I don't know what's wrong with me but whenever I am going through a lot, stressed and most especially frustrated/angry it's like something takes control over me and I become very agressive with my little ones without wanting to. I shout, I grab their hand quite hard and I'm just not very gentle.
I can see how much it affects them and always apologise after and give them a hug while I explain why I did what I did. That I was frustrated, but I shouldn't have reacted that way. I haven't been kind/gentle with them.
It's just me on my own and I do find it really hard. I can't afford a sitter and have no family near me or friends. What can I actually do? Because if I carry on like this I would rather give them up. As heart breaking as it is, I often think they'd be better off with another family who doesn't have such a short fuse

in our community

How do you all do it?

I’ve got the best 7 month old son who is my absolute world, but I am struggling so much. How do you all manage everyday life?
Like, I wake up and he is awake so I feed change and clothe him. I need a shower but how?! I need to vacuum the house, but how?! He doesn’t sleep for longer than an hour and when he does I’m so overwhelmed with everything I need to do that I don’t know where to start.
I don’t know how to cope with not being me anymore. I miss being able to get up, shower and dress and be presentable.
Does anyone have any life saving tips?

Paying a sixth of what he believes is the weekly bills rent and food..

Hi everybody, I’m a single Mam 4. My partner and I had our son four years ago we hadn’t been together very long. He broke up at me when I was pregnant and then got back with me then moved in to my house without invitation two weeks before our son was born and said he’ll give me €70 a week as a “contribution” at the time I had just had a child. I was very emotional and didn’t want to argue with him about money. I am on a loan parent payment and he is full time employed at a well paid job. I have tried to bring it up few times that it is just unfair to think that a grown man can move out of his parents house move in with a single Mum and think that his donation of what he calls is about a sixth because I should have to pay the rest because of me and my four kids. (my youngest child is his)
I do all the cooking all the cleaning I do all his washing. I have his dinner ready for him when he comes home and I buy all the stuff for his lunches, so he doesn’t have to buy food when he’s in work he just thinks I should supply it and will eat stuff I have bought for my kids for their school lunches even though I ask him not to he laughed like it’s a joke.

End of nursery /childcare

It’s my daughters last week at her child care setting and I want to get the staff something to say thank you , what did a anyone else get ?

Need opinions

Boyfriend: Mortgage, Hoa, Utilities
-works full time
-takes out trash

Girlfriend: Groceries/Necessities, Internet, Furniture
-works part time
-all childcare
-all household work

Car payments, phone bills etc. are personal. Is this a fair set up?
My boyfriend thinks I should be paying more bills but I don't think so because I earn less & do all the household labor. Also when calculating the percentage of our incomes spent on household expenses it comes out to a pretty equivalent percentage.
I suspect he's overspending on his own personal things because doing the math, he should be accumulating a savings with a moderate spending budget per month. But he says he is losing money dramatically and needs extra help. While I'm able to build a savings but I'm very frugal with what I spend on myself. But like I said we both contribute about 75-80% of our paychecks to household expenses so that leaves about 20-25% personal for each of us to do with what we wish.

Let me know if this is generally fair

Would these be safe to give to my son?

My mum bought these jelly pouches and I was wondering if they would be safe to give to my little boy? He’s 7 months old they claim to be sugar free and free of preservatives I wasn’t thinking of giving it as a sole food but to be used for more of a sensory experience but obviously that would include him putting it in his mouth just wondering what people think. I’ll post a picture of the back/ingredient list in the comment

Weaning

Anyone else little one struggle to wean?

My little boy is nearly 11 months and won't eat much literally a biscotti biscuit and that's about it, try spoon feeding him and he won't open his mouth!

Health visitor is fucking useless