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England

Lonely

So I'm posting this incognito because honestly I feel like a right loser.
I used to have friends I always had someone to talk to, to go out with, to have a text to reply to. I literally would do anything I could to help anyone. Then I moved to be with my husband and lost afew of them but made some more at work. Then we moved and had our children and one by one lost everyone I tried to meet up with people but when people forget about you, forget they made plans with you and don't turn up, are too tired to meet up, say they will see you and never arrange it, it all gets a bit too much and I stopped trying with them because at the end of the day it was me upset not them.
Now I don't work so can't make friends that way, I stay at home with my children, I have them, my husband and my mum to talk to.
School has been open 3 days now and everyday I see people talking, me I stand there by myself, I say hello how are you they answer but walk past. Yesterday I stood waiting and may as well have been invisible people just joined the queue in front of me.
I've met people on here one I thought was going to be a great friend but she turned nasty others just haven't progressed to anything. Honestly I don't know what's wrong with me I don't know why I'm the one stood alone. What's wrong with me. I think I just needed to put that all into words and I also hope it helps someone. If you see someone by themselves at the school gates smile, say hello, include them in your conversation because we don't know what others are going through or how they are feeling.