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First time mums

Rant..apologies

Why isn’t postpartum depression not talked about enough? Or even just how you will be postpartum. Theres not enough information and support given to you while going through pregnancy or even in general because support systems struggle to understand the concept too. I feel like I’m going insane with how I’m feeling atm. I genuinely have never felt so low. I feel trapped. And why is there no relationship support offered or atleast guide you to the correct people. I’ve tried reaching out to my health visitor but she doesn’t have anything for weeks and suggested I go to one of the support hubs. I don’t drive and my partner doesn’t like me going on the bus with the baby and he’s always working. My friends and family have said they’ll support me but haven’t exactly seen the consistency between their words and their actions coming together. I am starting to resent my partner and I’m worrying he’s making me depend on him too much to the point where I don’t know if I’m sane anymore. He goes to work, he gets to go golf and when we do stuff together 9 out of 10 times he invites one of his friends to join us. It’s like he doesn’t want to be with me alone. He’s constantly on his phone too. I understand he’s just started his own company but there’s no way he’s doing job stuff or talking about work the whole evening too. Apologies I need to rant as currently my only conversations are through messages with him or my 3 month old