Breastfeeding... Feeling deflated... Is it time to stop?

Hey Mamas ☺️ My baby boy is 7 weeks old and this week... Honestly, I can't wait for it to end! I'm feeling really deflated. It's been quite a challenging start to feeding and thought I had it cracked last week, but this week it's just gone downhill again. My breasts were constantly engorged before and I was having to hand express some off (which actually just wasn't helping at all) So I spoke to a HV about it a couple of weeks ago and she said to stop expressing... this really helped! However the last couple of days, it's like they have gone back to being engorged again! I have no idea what I've done wrong. I've felt really emotional this week (my boy started school) and just feeling overwhelmed with alot at the minute! I just want time with my first born back and feeling abit suffocated I suppose 😔 The last week I've really enjoyed feeding my son, but I'm just not sure if I can carry it on! I personally don't want to express. Thats not an option for me. Does anyone have any advice? Should I try and carry on? Its awful feeling so guilty. I only managed a week with my first born so im really proud I've come this far! I'd love to carry on, but is it worth my mental health? I think I just needed to get it off my chest! Xx

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I’ve always said that breastfeeding is about the mother not the baby. If mum is not happy, in pain, more exhausted or struggling with more than just the usual newborn stuff it’s not worth it. Formula nowadays is amazing and you’ve done great getting to this point too x

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I will say once your baby has a routine with feeding whether thats every hour, or 3 hours your body will react and only make what he drinks it just takes time to get to that point, expressing makes your body think it needs to make more, which makes building a supply up a pain or trying to reduce night feeds etc. Ive just come to terms with night feeds and not doing bottles and apart from when I first wake up Ive not had engorgment issues for a while.
Put yourself first though!
Maybe talk to a lactation consultant for help?

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At the moment, my baby is feeding a lot so I'm getting sporadically engorged. It's because of the heat. I also find I get incredibly engorged a few hours after eating oats.

You can find yourself engorged when you're feeling strong motherly emotions. Perhaps your son going back to school has caused a temporary engorgement?

I definitely recommend speaking to a breastfeeding expert rather than a health visitor etc.

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I'm feeling exactly the same if you want to message me x

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I was told up until 8 weeks post partum milk is hormone driven and after that it is supply and demand and I was at the end of my tether at 7 weeks but kept going and can honestly say things have felt so much easier 8 weeks onwards (my little one is now 11 weeks) I still get engorgement but think the heat has affected this as her feeding is all over the place! You've obviously got to go with how you feel but thought this may help! Xx

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Mine have been the same the last few days due to the heat and I’ve been collecting loads more than usual in my haaka, hopefully it will settle down once the heat subsides xxx

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