in

New York City

Fuck

Why do I always force myself to become numb when I’m having anxiety about something terrible, literally have no one I feel safe sharing things with. On top of that I don’t feel like talkin about it at alll Smtt. I hate this cause I can act like everything is okay but this how I believe I grew up to be bipolar in the first place. On the other hand I could actually take the time to feel what I’m feeling but I have a 1 ye old boy and a 6 year old girl and I don’t want to show these emotions to them much less cry randomly outside having to pick her up from school. Smtttttttt. Pray for me 😪😓