Anyone not enjoying maternity leave as much as they thought they would?

I feel like a terrible mum saying this, but I'm hating maternity leave. I've never felt so down, depressed, unmotivated, tired and bored in my whole life.

I absolutely adore my little boy and I love watching him grow, but at the moment he's going through a really clingy, whining/moaning phase where NOTHING I'm doing is keeping him happy. My partner goes to work and I feel resentment towards him, he wanted to go fishing this weekend, but our little boy is poorly and has been extra cranky, I've looked after him all week, by the time my partner gets in, its basically time for a feed, bath and bed for our boy. My partner NEVER has him on his own and doesn't understand how bloody hard it is. So I've asked him to stay home this weekend to help me out.

I'm not a social butterfly, i HATE baby classes and tbh, my little one isn't that keen neither, he either just falls asleep or cries. I want to take him swimming (only thing I've not done with him) but I just have 0 motivation, I feel poorly myself at the moment, I have bad anxiety about taking him swimming on my own first time (partner is reluctant to join and just keeps passing it off).

I just want to be back in work 😔 my partner says "I get me time when I go yo university on a thursday" but I don't...I'm working so so hard for my degree, stressing myself out, studying at all hours of the day. I never have time to go out by myself for a walk, or a coffee. I have 2 "friends" that haven't bothered with me since having my boy, so I don't go out with friends.

I don't know what to do, I'm not due back in work till July, I really have tried to make the effort to get out and change up my week, but it's honestly such a struggle for me.

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I’m the same, I’m enjoying the time with my daughter. But I’m just not motivated at all, I have breakdowns because I can’t get house work done and what my partner might think because I don’t clean the house, I try to but daughter is just so clingy. I go out a walk every few days with my daughter I know I should go out every day but I just don’t have the energy or motivation to get myself up and get ready and go out. I cry mostly every day. I don’t have resentment for my partner for just being able to go out. I’m from Scotland and moved down to the north east so I don’t really have anyone here, I feel o would enjoy it more if my friends from home were around but they aren’t. I’ve made one friend being here and it was from this app. I don’t want to pester her everyday to go a walk and stuff the days my partner works. We can only rely on his parents taking her for the night as well which is every few weeks, that I don’t mind but I’ve had to make the decision to not return to work

And be a SAHM which I’m completely depressed about as we don’t have the money for care and my partners mum has her own routine everyday and couldn’t commit to watching my daughter while I work 6am-2pm. My mum always says if we lived near each other i would watch her everyday so you could go back to work in which she can’t because she lived in Scotland. Everything is just getting to me and I feel like no one understands 🤦🏼‍♀️😞

I cannot wait to go back to work,I miss adult conversations and human interaction. I am not enjoying motherhood whatsoever,I am beyond exhausted, husband doesn't help even though he's always home (WFH) I don't get weekends off or anything,all I do is clean the house and look after the baby boy. I don't recognise myself,I miss my life from before baby,I cry every night just thinking about it, whilst husband is next to me snoring and baby is awake. We don't have anyone here,no family close,we are both immigrants. Its really really hard and I don't know how long I can do it for.

I fully appreciate that! My first I hated being off, this time I planned to go back asap 😂 my partner has taken the MAT leave and he's loving it! It's just not for me. I'm so much better now that I work and have that time away

Hey please message me I was in the same boat as you and I’ve found ways to really help lift myself out of the shit hole I was in reach out I can’t see waves so message me xxx

My oldest was lockdown and I was so down and I thought this time I would be sociable. However I have zero motivation, my hubby can't really do the kids by himself. I am hard of hearing so the idea of group is a bit scary now and my house is a state so should really be doing that. Even though I work from home I speak to people and I will have kid free time. I can't even eat a meal at the moment without getting up loads dealing with two kids...while my husband eats. Grrr.

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I come home from my errands that morning and he's upped and left. He took all of his belongings, clothes, drawer, tv- everything.

He didn't ring or text me or anything.

The property is in my name and as he left and didn't leave the key, I changed the locks the next day. I feel this is what pushed him over the edge.

He officially divorced me on Saturday.
I'm 5 months post partum and I have a 5 year old from my ex partner too.

I just want to talk about it with someone that's not biased. Was I asking for too much? I feel he just didn't want to be with me anymore and used this as an excuse? Or is that me overthinking....
Input would be nice xoxo

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Ok so for starters i know some of you are going to say omg omg omg super controlling omg leave omg. No im not doing that. Im happy he finally admitted his wrong doing and taking accountability for it but id like to know the deeper reason, the what the f has him thinking like this reason, the personality trait reason. He’s obviously scared I’m going to leave him; so much so that he’s doing this dumb shit to prevent it. Past trauma? What do y’all think I can do to get him to see I’m not going anywhere? I’m consistent already, I married him, we have a baby. He really is the love of my life. I have never loved another man like this before.. but this shit is for the birds and he thinks he’s keeping me doing this but in actuality it’s making me lose respect and detach.