Resentment and placing blame on partner
Firstly, please donโt judge me - Iโm aware all my thoughts arenโt rational and I do already feel badly about them
Iโm finding myself becoming easily frustrated, annoyed, and placing a lot of blame on my partner for many things. Now Iโd get it if he was rubbish but heโs not - he has the baby straight away when he gets home from work, he lets me get ready and shower before he goes to work, he pitches in with the chores and gives me any time I ask for off. He doesnโt go out loads either.
I do a lot of the mental labour - realising we need more of and purchasing clothes, milk, groceries, deciding dinner, cooking, cleaning, thinking about what baby needs, etc.
However I just find myself annoyed and blaming him for so many things I find difficult. I know this isnโt fair, but itโs almost like Iโm angry that heโs finding it easy and Iโm not. Angry if Iโve just got the baby to sleep and he doesnโt think and closes doors to loudly. Angry when he doesnโt dress baby warm enough, or when he puts him in a car seat with a coat on. When he forgets a blanket or doesnโt wash his hands and plays with him. When hes snoring and Iโve just got the baby to drift off.
We have had many conversations and he has tried to take loads off me but it never feels like enough for me to stop being annoyed with him.
Am I experiencing some sort of post partum mental health issues? I find myself upset and crying a lot. any advice would help.