Traumatic Birth

I recently gave birth yesterday and the whole situation was extremely traumatic and nothing went to plan. How did you all cope with this? Since giving birth I have been trying to rest but no matter what I cannot get the last three days out of my mind for a second. Will this pass and settle?

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I know you are always entitled to ask for a debrief of your birth with a midwife which may help you understand exactly what happened and why which might help you process it all? Hope you are okay x

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So sorry to hear this, hope you and baby are ok. I will say the first few weeks are going to be their own adventure but at some point you might be ready to have that debrief with the team where you delivered, or perhaps opt for some alternative therapy to talk through it. Perhaps a postpartum doula might be able to help with that? If you feel like you need to process it more immediately perhaps you can write down the experience including all the things that didn’t feel right, or all the things you wish had happened but didn’t, that way you can kind of get your worries down and out of your head until the right time to discuss them. Sending hugs!x

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I can completely relate I also had a traumatic experience two weeks ago which ended in an emergency c-section. I have tried to come to terms with it through talking to family and friends and looking through photos but I am seriously thinking of having a debrief with the hospital, your midwife will talk to you about it x

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I have already spoken to the doctor that performed the C section however I still feel very overwhelmed. I did also speak to the midwife and she said it may possibly be a mixture of the trauma with baby blues making it a lot worse. I just wish I could get some sleep and rest without it on my mind all the time. I want to enjoy the time with my baby and not feel this way 😢

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Hey I had a traumatic birth on 12th I lost 2litres of blood and came close to dying I feel so overwhelmed by the whole experience I can't sleep alone cuz of flashbacks being in agony labouring I love my baby so much but I'm so sad I cry all the time I pray it passes x

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Give yourself time. It is still so fresh, and you have so much going on with your hormones/baby blues/tiredness etc. You are entitled to a birth debrief should you want one. I had a traumatic birth in 2023, and it took a while but I eventually came to terms with it. Don’t put pressure on yourself just to forget it - it literally happened a few days ago! After a few days in hospital and arriving home, I did start to be able to compartmentalise a little, and set it aside almost to deal with it later and enjoy time with my baby. It’ll be very fresh in your mind at the moment, which is normal. Give yourself some grace 🫶🏻

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