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I need advice BAD 💔

I need advice urgently. My husband and I have 2 kids and one on the way. He has 1 other kid with another women from a past marriage. The first couple months were great and he made me feel like I’m the number one person in his world. Now 6 years later we couldn’t be so far off the deep end. He’s not emotionally mature at all and whenever there’s a disagreement he goes straight to screaming and disrespecting me. Our son asks me whenever this happens why does papa talk to you like that? Why does he yell? Can you tell him I don’t like that? Then I have my daughter who will come in the room and yell at him (she’s 3) to stop yelling at me and that I’m here mom. This is so toxic for her to feel like she has to protect me. When I was little I had to protect my mom so it’s very triggering for me to see my daughter almost play the same role but at a younger age. I’ve explained to him so many times how it makes me feel and how it makes the kids feel and how the house is not a peaceful household. I had a hard childhood and I’m in therapy so I can break cycles and be the best version of myself/mom I can be. I’m so scared of the damage of a split household but I’m so scared to damage my kids and self by the example he’s setting / how unhappy i am by the way he views me and treats me. His ex wife was on the phone tonight when he was trying to teach his kids the Quran (1 on the phone since he doesn’t live with us) and then my son hitting right in front of him. I’m in a completely different room and I can hear my husband as if he’s sitting right next to me and he’s yelling at his son how to say the words correctly when he’s making mistakes. Granted I thought he was yelling at my son (5) but it was his other son (9). So I walked into the room and was telling him no teacher talks like this why are you yelling they don’t learn this way. He told me to shut the fuck up and get out of the room. I told him again to fix the way he’s talking in a nice but serious tone and to not speak to me this way. He proceeded to say I don’t give a fuck and to get out of the room and it went on for like a minute. Now his ex wife definitely heard that and it’s very embarrassing for me. She literally left him for these reasons and when she knew he moved on she asked him “why don’t you talk to her the way you talk to me” he responded “because you’re not Marisa and never will be I can’t let myself talk to her like that” it made me feel so good in that moment because I felt loved, respected and special. But now I feel like there’s no difference between me and her or some other person because I don’t feel loved, respected or valued. He told me he can pay for anybody to do what I do. He just blames me for his actions and I feel so stuck with do I leave for me and the backlash of kids get their dad taken away? Do I further damage myself and be unhappy? Do I show my kids this example of how to exactly not be or have them get upset and develope anxiety? Or feel not safe at home due to my emotional abuse? I’m pregnant and have no job. He provides everything for me. I feel so stuck.