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December 2025 Babies 🇺🇸

Little Rant

Idk if I’m looking for advice or not but I have literally no one to talk to about this so I’m posting it here. I am about to be six months pregnant. I’ve been with my boyfriend for over three years l, living together for two and this is our first child together. Up until yesterday I had every intention of marrying this man. But now I doubt that’s going to happen. So my boyfriend works a pretty good job but he absolutely hates it. He makes good money but it can be really laborious and takes a lot out of him. So he decided that he wanted to get on twitch and start streaming to gain extra income and hopefully become a main source of income. I’ve supported him from the beginning. We both decided not to have me or our life included in his streaming for privacy and safety reasons.

Now here’s the kicker. A few months ago he told me (not asked) that he was going to start a series or whatever on his stream where he goes on dating apps and trolls women (I know it sounds messed up, trust me). I obviously didn’t agree but atp I can’t stop him from doing what he wants to do and promised not to have an input on his streaming. So he’s doing his thing and I’m not watching his stream because I hate when he does foolishness like this. Anyways, one day I get home from work and he’s on stream doing this series but from the couple seconds I hear it doesn’t really sound like trolling. So I decide to go watch the stream back and see wants going on. This man is not trolling women! He’s scrolling through dating apps, liking other women’s photos and messaging them stuff like “what’s your fav Beyoncé song” or whatever. At one point he even made a comment on the size of a women’s privates saying “that thang fat”. I’ve known my man to be a hoe in the past. He’s got like 10 times more bodies than me but he’s always been loyal, never had to worry about him cheating.

Anyways, so clearly I’m pissed off now because wtf. I feel like a fool. Do I think he’s gonna cheat, no, but I’m carrying your child and this is how you’re portraying yourself on the internet?? It’s so messed up. So I shut down for like a day or so. Barely speaking to him. When I finally break down and express how it’s made me feel, he tells me that I’m going to have to decide whether or not I can deal with it. Aka be a single mother or deal with what he’s doing. The only “comfort” he gave me was telling me that he loves me and doesn’t message women outside the stream and that I have nothing to worry about (which I believe) but ultimately it’s about appearances and I’m out here looking like boo-boo the fool. If any of our family members or friends see this stream, they’re gonna be like wtf. So now I’m here contemplating what to do because again this whole situation is messed up and I can’t stop crying and this man is being a complete asshole about this situation. Other than this he has been really attentive and loving and everything towards me and the baby but now all of a sudden my feelings don’t mean shit. Mind you!! The stream is called “finding my future wife”! Glad to know I’m no longer being considered for that position.

So idk… obviously the logical thing is to leave him but it’s not that simple and idk what to do. Honestly it feels like he wants me to end the relationship but he said and I quote “if it were me, I wouldn’t be able to deal with it.” So what makes you think that I, an overly emotional pregnant woman would be able to?