A mother’s jealousy can destroy a daughter in ways no one can imagine..

You know I’m sitting here just baffled. It’s like 1 million bricks fell on top of me today and I can’t help but just weep at her lost how little I’ve loved myself how much I’ve allowed and tolerated and how I’ve been backstabbed by every single person that I love and considered family And with no idea what I’ve done. for years I just wanted to be enough for my mom. I wanted to be wanted. I wanted to be loved and I find myself every day just carrying less and less because I will never be that, but and then it brings me back to how pathetic that I’m not enough for myself that I cannot love myself enough to stand up for myself to fight for what I deserve to settle for less because I’m scared of things being too hard and starting over I can’t take it anymore. I’m sitting here fighting every day to be enough and meet people‘s expectations not even realizing that I’m so unhappy because all these things are not for me for everyone else. I feel so lost. I’ve wasted so much time. I don’t even know how to move forward. It’s so overwhelming and I’m just really done. I’m just exhausted and I just don’t care but if there’s a part with that such just now fuck everybody, I’m gonna be hateful and miserable the way you apparently want me to be I don’t know. I’m just so lost. My mind is going 100 mph and I just feel like my whole life has a waste. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know who I am.

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Im.so sorry you going throught thats me too infeel this way sometime have you try therapy or have ypu try medication anti depression

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Therapy will help I found I was a people pleaser bad when it came to my mom who has always hated me and turned her family against me that’s why people don’t like me and backstab me you focus so much on being a good girl and doing what you’re told little do you know you’ve been brainwashed to be everyone’s puppet. It’s okay therapy and self discovery will help but it takes time and retraining your mind.

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