Love my husband. Love my kids. ButâŠ
Iâm 32 weeks pregnant with twins. I take care of my 4 yo, 2 yo, and 1 yo. I barely have energy to stand anymore. I cuddle and watch movies with my kids all day at this point. My husband is less pushy in this pregnancy in wanting to be touched or love up on me. But I feel more like a tool these days more than ever. He gets frustrated (not to a crazy degree) but I can tell he huffs because heâs probably sexually frustrated from me not wanting to be touched on. (my boobs are super sensitive atm) I love having the babies part, but the pregnancy also now has me feeling like a baby making machine. And a tool with big boobs made for touches and my husbands pleasure. Ofc I love my husband and kids, but with my hormones all wack, it really doesnât feel the same when youâre not turned on. Itâs so hard for me to get turned on. Iâm uncomfortable all the time in my own body. Babies moving in there all the time. My children cuddle me all day but get rowdy at the end of the day, so I end up getting touched out and I can get irritable when my husband tries to touch me affectionately. He doesnât have the tact necessary for me right now, when I wish he wanted to go in for a normal comforting hug Iâm let down more often than not, there is almost always a boob groping involved as well. I tried to just let him touch me last night so he could get it out of his system, but he could tell I felt tense. Wish my boobs werenât such an uncomfortable place for me to be touched. Idk why Iâm making this post. Probably just to vent. Wish men were equally as emotionally intelligent as women. Wish I didnât feel like I still owe him something because heâs picking up a lot of the house load and yet I still need to ask him to do more before these twins arrive. Heâs tired every day when he comes home, so he takes a shower sometimes works out, and helps get the kids to bed. So itâs a struggle getting him to help any further than that. Weekends are my only time to get to him. But itâs a struggle to find time on weekends too. I know if he wanted to he would. But thereâs just no drive.