Anxiety

I can relate to this as I got pregnant after a long while trying so I had a lot of health anxiety. A counsellor advised me to get someone else to research anything I was worried about for me, as I found googling and being on the internet sent me down a rabbit hole every time x

Stay off of chatgpt don't google or webmd yourself into anxiety as that's not good for you or baby. Women have healthy pregnancies and babies at 40+ all the time so there's no reason to assume you won't. It'll be okay. Do you have a therapist and a good relationship with your OB? That can make a world of difference.

I started a bit like this (38 years old, so pretty similar) and then my husband asked me if I would have googled it before being pregnant and I was…. Nop, but I knew what to expect, now no. And that clicked for me, I read what to expect every month so I knew if something was normal or not and honestly, got really relaxed. The only time I got paranoid was when I started having headaches in the second trimester, so checked twice a day my blood pressure, as it could indicate preeclamsia, my blood pressure was fine, so was I, my worries stopped. My midwife even commended that I went through the pregnancy very chilled and that knew everything she told me before hand, so we could discuss things I didn’t completely understand

I can also teach you how to navigate grow therapy to find one of your own if you don't want the referral. Having an unbiased person to vent to that can help you figure out the source of that anxiety and ways to navigate it as well as contractually obligated to keep it private often times works way better than just talking to friends or family, especially if you don't like to burden people with your sorrows.

I’d suggest staying away from Google too, it never gives the right answer & it leads you don’t negative paths. Your hormones will be raging & lots of change in your body so try (easier said than done) to give yourself some grace. Put the energy you are using up on worrying (because we can’t change anything anyway), into looking after yourself. Get sleep, binge a series, watch a film, have a bath, go for a walk, listen to music/pod cast. Whatever can distract your mind & keep you buy or well looked after.
Pregnancy is a long & bumpy journey you will spend the rest of your life worrying about your baby (inside and out) so try remind yourself that it’s journey, with highs and lows, breathe through the shit moments & praise yourself constantly. Take the small wins always. Talk to people too, everyone will listen who’s been pregnant before & will relate in some way x

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way 💛 I completely get how overwhelming early pregnancy can be. You’re not alone in feeling anxious or checking symptoms constantly - it’s totally normal.
I actually started a group for moms called The Village for Moms, and it’s a space to share, vent, and get support. I would love for you to join so we can all support you! 🩷

https://www.peanut-app.io/share/IzC9dONX10b

Ps look into magnesium glycinate. It's got tons of benefits for you and your babies development and health - including stress, insomnia, and anxiety relief that's totally safe. It even helps prevent preeclampsia, growth restrictions, low birth weight and preterm labor. Ask your doctor. ❤️