Confronting Cheating
I am 11week pregnant rn. He confronted this infidelity of past two years. He mentioned sleeping with 7 different women. It’s was when he traveled and hung out with his friends. And he decided to tell when I was pregnant. He counter blamed me. He said he dint cheat on me, he was not trying to hurt me, in fact he was the one getting hurt so he did what he did.
My in law are also very mean, controlling & intrusive. Which adding to all the stress. Also I have 0 support from own family. And I am immigrant and I have no friends in LA/USA.
He say he wants to fix the relationship for the baby. But his words and actions don’t line up. He ignores me, doesn’t try to keep me happy. And he lives in his own world of escape.
I feel so stuck. I feel like I have no where to go. I feel like this baby is suffering and I am failing to give him/her a safe environment. I am financially dependent.
I don’t know where to start from. Forgive for the baby. But he keeps on hurting me by ignoring me, never actively listening, stone walling me, I feel like I talking to walls, etc.
He never showed up to any ultrasound & ignores my calls.
I feel I am going crazy day by day & losing my sense of self and grounding. I have been gaslit for all these years that I can’t understand the difference between reality n my thoughts.
I want to leave him but how do I do it ???
Please help me to draw an action plan to leave him and build an independent life.
It’s so hard to even leave cus he keeps me trapped… if I want to leave he guilt trips into staying by crying and if I stay he shows 0 interest/efforts in doing the very basic work that a relationship needs..
Plus I keep getting flashbacks of the cheating and all the lies of all these years I feel I am such a fool to not notice anything while everything was happening right in front of me… I am in shock !!! N it’s so hard to cope with this trust… I don’t even know if he is lying about cheat just to hurt me & to make me leave or is he actually tell me the truth...?
It’s so hard for me to see through things & his intentions !!!!