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Baby Daddy Drama

I need advice!! LONG ONE, so sorry🫠🫶

Soo im gonna try and make this post as short as possible. Short sweet and to the point but I dont know how well that will go lol. Anyway.
I had my baby in January. My BD and I have been broken up since September '25. He was crazy, erratic and abusive. Not physically but it came close a few times. He was mentally, emotionally, and verbally abusive. He said and did a lot of things that drove me to break things off. I wanted my family together but I couldnt take the toxicity any longer. He treated me like SHIT while I was pregnant.
Last year, after I broke things off with him, he ended up breaking into my house on October 7th. I let it slide because I didnt want the police involved but it was a huge fight to get him to leave. That same night, he got arrested on a warrant he had (karma really is a bitch) He spent 2 months in jail. We were still broken up but I was contemplating getting back together with him and TALKING about him coming back home to live with me again but it was never set in stone. Fast forward to a month into his jail time, I decided I couldnt do it anymore so I stopped talking to him completely. When he got out, he came to my house and broke in AGAIN. I had a pending protection order case against him but hadn't gone to court yet. (Because of him breaking in the first time, I wanted to keep me and my family safe) Well i said enough is enough of this BULLSHIT so I called the cops on him the second time. Because he needed to understand actions like that come with consequences! His lawyer got him a deal where he didnt have to go to jail for residential entry which is a felony. The case is still pending. But when I went to court over the protection order, he didn't show up to tell his side so it was just me and all I did was explain that I felt unsafe around him, he did a lot of violent things like break all kinds of my things, punch walls, got literally IM MY FACE to scream at me, just toxic shit but I did ask to drop the charges against him but rhe judge said the state pickedit up so it wasnt really up to me. They granted the 2 year protection order.

He filed for paternity in February. He is the father but I never wanted him in the room with me or at the hospital regardless of a protection order or not but he doesnt think our son is his. We had paternity court over the phone March 26th to get things rolling. I noticed he had emailed me from a weird new email he created begging for his family back and that hes turned a page in his life and all he wants is peace and his family together. Telling me I could have whatever I want, do what I want, he'll work and I can stay home with our son. Theres more but I wont get into everything he said but this was 3 days before our court hearing. He then emailed me again after we got off the phone. I then got another email the next day. I havent heard from him since.
But what I really want advice on is should I just let him see his son before we go to court? Because although hes got nothing on me like he thinks he does, I know hes going to try and make my life a LIVING HELL. I want to protect my peace but I also just want to be able to co parent in a healthy way and things be good with us. I want him to be able to see his son. I dont want to alienate him from his son. We were best friends before anything and I know deep down he can be a good man but the actions and some of the things he has said to me are unforgivable. I dont think I'll ever be able to get back with him, he is the father of my child though so I still have this deep love for him that makes me want to go back to him 1 more time to see if we can actually make it work this time especially since we have a baby together. I know you shouldn't get back with soemone just because you have kids together, it could end up good or do more harm than good i just dont know anymore.
but I just want to know your thoughts? Wait for paternity to be established and go through court or just let him see him now so maybe he wont make my life an actual living hell? He's so petty. Hes hot and cold. One minute hes good and happy, the next minute hes erratic, acting a fool, being a fucking dick and just no fucks given.
What do you guys think I should do? This is so hard. 😔