Postpartum anxiety

I know anxiety is normal having a baby but I don’t think mine is normal. I’m in constant fear that something is going to happen to my baby but I immediately go to she’s going to die and I can’t cope with it. I was told it would be very hard for me to get pregnant and that I would need help but to our surprise we fell pregnant naturally. I was so anxious during my pregnancy I didn’t enjoy it as much as I should have and I never thought she’d get here, she did and she’s going to be 5 months old next week but the fear and anxiety is just getting worse. I thought it would be better when she was here but it is a lot worse than it ever was. I don’t want anybody holding her, looking after her, touching her nothing. She stayed at my mum’s over the weekend and she didn’t go by my rules that I have to keep her safe and it’s sent me into a ball of anxiety. She’s absolutely fine but it’s overruling my life and I don’t think I’m enjoying my baby as much as I should because of how scared I am. Does anyone have any tips that I could maybe use to try and help me with this?

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Firstly , I’m sorry you feel like this and you’re not alone.

If it feels like it is taking over your life contact your gp. I contacted my gp and got an appointment the same day and got talking therapy the following week. I am doing CBT and it has helped so much.

I find my anxiety being worse when I don’t sleep well. My babes started to get a better sleep from 7 months - and that has also helped my anxiety lots.

But don’t suffer in silence, go and speak to someone is my best recommendation 🫶

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Hey, does sound like anxiety and people not sticking to your rules will not be helpful, although people for some reason push back against rules set by parents, many people navigate it but if it causing you more anxiety maybe consider therapy, CBT is good for changing negative thinking system. Pp hormones does not help emotions feel copeable, I was anxious early pp as well and didn’t want my baby away from me, to some extent I still don’t but were a bit better but I didn’t have intense anxiety all the time that she wasn’t with me and my thought didn’t spiral all the time so if you’re feeling that way, I’d get help now because it doesn’t get better the older the get the more worried you naturally become cause they’re more able to explore the world independently and you want them to do that safely, and you want to be able to sleep when your children are away from you.
I have my faith and that keeps me grounded whenever I think about the fact that my lg will grow up in the world

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I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way! But I’m also suffering with the same! My baby is 9 days old and I’m constantly in fear that something is going to happen to him. I’m not getting enough sleep and that’s fuelling things further.
If you can get some help I would highly recommend it. I’m under my local perinatal mental health team who have been very helpful throughout my pregnancy. I cannot wait to touch base with them now postpartum to put a plan going forward. You can speak to your birth centre or GP about a referral if you think that’s right for you. But you got this mama! X

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Hey, sorry you're feeling this way. This sounds exactly like me with my first born. I had postnatal depression. I also have ADHD so because my brain never shuts off, it always goes to the worst case scenario. I used to get intrusive thoughts/ images of my baby dying in some horrific way and it being because I did something wrong. It helps to talk openly about it (I didnt). I spoke to my GP and was referred to the perinatal team, who supported me. I never talked openly about it to other people until being pregnant this time around and I wish i had talked about it sooner. Please speak to your GP at the very least. My little boy missed out on an awful lot because I was so terrified to do anything with him or to break any rules. It ruled my life. Feel free to message me if you want to talk about it hun. I am actually a mental health nurse as well so i have experience both personally and professionally.

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So sorry you're feeling like this, see if you can get help from the perinatal mental health team, I have been under them since my LO was born as my anxiety was so severe like yours, i eventually made the decision to go onto antidepressants as my thoughts were getting so dark. Definitely get in contact with your midwife or health visitor and see if they can help you if not your GP. Feel free to message me about anything im here to help and im looking to start a support group for women with postnatal depression and anxiety xx

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I am sorry you're going through this.

I can relate as I really struggled with anxiety and depression after my son was born. It turned into postnatal depression.

I got support from the perinatal team, which really helped. I would go through the GP. X

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