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First time mums

I feel helpless and guilty. Advice?

I am currently 26 weeks pregnant and I have little to nothing for my baby yet because her dad and I are struggling financially. I stopped working 2 weeks ago because my body couldn’t handle it anymore and my job was very physically taxing (I am a private caregiver (( I give baths, feed, lift clients, etc… and they try to fight me sometimes). My child’s father is still working but he lost one of his jobs a couple weeks after we found out I was pregnant. My hours at work were also cut around that time, so even though I was still working up to two weeks ago, I wasn’t making much. We don’t live together so we both pay rent & bills of our own & that’s all we can afford to do right now. In all 3 years we’ve been together, this is the FIRST time we’ve ever been super low on cash and we have a baby on the way! I’m freaking out & I feel like I’ve already failed my child. I low-key regret continuing the pregnancy with these circumstances. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my baby, but I hate feeling so helpless. I’ve been trying to find ways to make money from home, but a lot of things require money to start. My child’s father is looking for another job as well as other ways to make money too, but nothing is really working out consistently. I know this won’t last forever but I just can’t see a way out for us right now. My boyfriend has NEVER not had money since I met him and it’s starting to really annoy me, I feel bad for saying this and feeling this way, but it’s really overwhelming because I am no longer able to work. I am trying to give him grace because I know this must very hard and stressful for him right now too.