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30 & Older Moms

Does it get easier?

So im a mum of 3 under 4 and most days there's a moment if not a great portion of th day where I'm overwhelmed or stressed or mad or some sort of negative feeling cause they take turns t have a drama and im here trying t stay calm but in actuality I'm absorbing all their emotions n then I can't cope.

Anyway as they get older I'm getting braver thinking let's go to this place or that place whilst Daddy's at work and explore... But every time I find them too much and I feel myself resenting my husband never having t take th kids everywhere he goes and doing it solo majority of th time. He will venture out once a week with th older 2 but as I'm bf he will never know th struggle of being out with all 3 of them on ur own.

I keep thinking th more i do it the easier it will get but it's something different every time to th point where I loose my confidence. I cant take my kids out n it be a good time anymore, i loose my sh* every time over 1 thing or another. If it's not 1 having a melt down over bfeeding, it's th other cause shes learnt to walk and refuses t go in th pram or th third because every thing takes so damn long with th first 2.

I genuinely thought th more trips out we do th better every1 would get at handling it but I just find myself resenting my husband for not having t have a trail of 3 kids follow h where ever he goes every single day. If I'm not loosing my mind during th day I'm pulling my hair out at night when th youngest refuses t go back t sleep after a feed or the non stop wakes for feeds that put me under 4 hours sleep.

Im just so done with th battle every day t stay positive and cheerful when I spend every day trying t avoid meltdowns and doing 'fun things' that inevitably cause me t have a melt down.

I swear if it's not them it's me.