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Indian Arranged marriage - Feeling like im loosing my freedom

It's been a year since I married and with in 2 months of marriage I got pregnant. I didn't want to have children but my husband said infertility rate is high and once its done we can enjoy. I don't know why I agreed. But my main problem is my mother in law. They have a big house and she expected me to do all the house work which I did not. I didn't do any house work except cooking. After getting married I did dishes and cooking. She calls all her relatives and says I'm not doing anything. I stopped doing all the house work once I got pregnant and I had to go office.I had anterior pregnancy so I got severe back pain. Mil still expected me to do all house work which I did not and she made 1 curry and ate for 3 days. I ate office lunch but dinner was one curry for 3 days. She made my pregnancy journey horrible. My breastfeeding journey too. I still have severe back and tailbone pain in 3 months postpartum. She somehow convinced my husband to make me work( house chores) at 3rd month I started doing hourse chores again this time a lot of work. I feel sick. I feel lost. I feel drained emotionally, physically and financially ( they take half my salary too and the rest goes for the baby or for the house). I feel stuck. My husband goes out a lot not only for work but for events, friends, gym etc. I started hating him like he expects me work in house and he enjoy's outside. Im now in my mothers house and don't want to go back.