PP Depression?

I’m sorry for the long post but if you read it I appreciate any advice.

My sweet baby boy is almost 5 months and I feel so alone. I haven’t had any thoughts of self harm but definitely feel sad a lot and just so overwhelmed. I hate crying especially when my baby is awake but I’ve been tearing up a lot. I have been struggling so much mentally there is so much stuff I need to do and I can’t get done. I don’t have help other than my boyfriend who is gone for work for another week(he does it so I can stay home and so eventually he can make his own schedule and be home more). There’s times I’m so sad I feel sick and a lot of times I can’t get words out mainly bc I sit quiet unless I’m talking to my baby and then I genuinely forget how to talk to adults. I’m 20 and have had anxiety but I can’t take medicine and I can’t talk to a counselor. I know I’m not helping myself by not taking medicine or a counselor. I forced myself to try both and neither one helped.

Thank you again.

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When do you stop using a baby monitor?

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So my question is are you all still using your monitors or when did you stop?

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Turning over in the cot

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Not crawling or rolling back to tummy

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But still not crawling or wanting to roll back to tummy - why do I feel stressed that she isn’t doing this yet!
I encourage rolling every day but because she sat from around 5 months she has no interest in rolling.
Seeing other people’s posts on how much their baby is doing is making me feel a little stressed! ..
anyone feeling the same??

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