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I just don’t want sex. HELP

I’m so baffled by what on earth is going on inside my brain/body right now.
I love my husband. I fancy him which is what’s also confusing me. But I’ve lost all interest in sex since having our son 18 months ago. The more time passes the worse I’m getting. Last night I could tell he was getting a bit touchy feeling so before we went to bed I ran into the bathroom and stuck a load of fake tan on so that I had an excuse as to why I couldn’t do it. I made my apologies and he looked really gutted. He never ever puts pressure on me or ever makes me feel guilty or pressurises me into it which also makes me feel guilty that I don’t sometimes just do it. When we’re doing it it always feels really good. So I’ve no idea why that spark hasn’t lit back up for me.

I am tired and I think I had ppd and anxiety for a while (undiagnosed). But things have felt better and lighter for a while now. The only thing that isn’t back to normal is our sex life. But sex literally never ever crosses my mind. It’s like I’ve gone numb to those desires and it’s out of sight, out of mind. We can go weeks or we probably can do it once a month.

I’m a bit embarrassed to chat to my friends about this.