Venting..
I'm getting lonely..
I have a husband, we'll ex husband. We're together, have been for 12 years. If not longer lol.
Alp he wants to do is drink, when he doesn't get to he's moody and seems like he hates everything. Ik he has a problem, he's just not that interested in fixing it. We could talk about it one day, and he's totally on board for slacking down but it's just talk.
I want our child to have a great childhood, I don't want her seeing him like that. I make sure shes in bed by a certain time.
Iwant to cry, ik people will say leave. It isn't that simple, I'm a sahm, don't drive, don't have help family wise.
I do love him, I wish I could help him but I know it's something he has to want. I'm just so sick of crying every other night, I'm sick of not feeling loved, I'm sick of walking on eggshells most nights bc he's a bit too buzzed and wants to argue.
Idk what to say to fix this, I know he wants better for our kid but how is that ever gonna happen like this.. I've been trying so hard to straighten our lives up, but I can't do this on my own...
Aside from our child, I need more. I would give anything to be cuddles up too and spent time with, without the sexual grabbing and whiskey breath.
Mother’s Day flop
Just looking to vent, maybe make someone else out there not feel so alone. My spouse didn’t do anything for Mother’s Day and hardly gave me a hug. Granted he was working but he asked earlier what I wanted and I just wanted a heart felt gesture. Said maybe a card, maybe flowers, maybe a massage. Or something from my Amazon list, whatever he wanted to pick. Guess I shoulda just told him something, didn’t think he’d just shrug that off. Mentioned it to him yesterday and he said our vacation a week before counted… just at a loss ladies. Too numb from all this nonsense to even care anymore.
Baby refusing solids after trip
So my husband and I went on a trip to California for his friend's wedding and we left our 3 boys with my mom (4y, 2y, and 5M). I didn't pump as much as I should have I guess, because we burned through my stash when my 4yo was in the hospital and my sister helped to watch the 2 younger ones during the day and I came back at night. That's probably unnecessary info, but oh well 😂
Anyways, my mom fed my 5 mo plenty of purees/smashed foods while I was gone to compensate, and would still give him bottles mostly before bed and at night. She ran out of milk just before I got home. It was a 5 day trip.
I thought he was going to be some good eater when I got back, but now he's got separation anxiety, is super clingy, and only wants the boob. He's rejected almost everything I've tried to give him. Like, pursed lips, turning away, pushing my hand, etc. He did want to suck on my strawberry yesterday, but wouldn't try my cantaloupe today, and won't eat the stuff he used to seem to like (pureed carrots, bananas, avocados).
I'm trying to go at his pace, because I know it will probably make him hate food if I force it, so I'm only really offering it now if he reaches for my food.
