Loneliness

Im weeks 2 into my maternity leave (baby isn't here yet) and I'm stuck on what to do with myself. Baby room is all set, house is clean. I'd take myself out for a walk or sit in the garden but I can't walk very far till my back wrecks. I don't have any friends really to talk to/come visit me & husband is working, when he comes home he can want a bit of alone time to rewind from work which I get but I'm desperate for a bit of human interaction or something to keep me busy 🥺

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Hey girl,
I know we’re all here to find a friend but I never found someone who keeps up a conversation.
I really want a friend , since I don’t have any here. i moved to the us leaving family and all my girls in my home country, all I have is ny husband, damn girl gotta have some girl friends who imma share gossips and when my husband is acting up 😭😂

And I’m open to have a friend here to rely on and share our days our worries, gossip , go out have our kids ( I have a month old baby) play together and all those things.

But somehow I can’t find any the conversations just dies.

I’m 27 year old , I love food , watching shows , having sleepovers, talking about everything and anything.

If anyone really up to make a genuine friendship I’m here and I hope we can keep up with the conversation.

SUCH A CLICHE

Found out today my baby daddy has been secretly dating my nanny for almost a half year… she was one of my closest friends for years and I knew something started feeling off. She held me while I cried about our breakup so many times. Shes TWENTY years younger than him. Poor girl is dropping out of school bc she thinks he’s going to “take care of her”. While he makes millions a year and has successfully hid it so well he’s only paying me half of what she makes a month (barely anything I can’t even afford to rent the crappiest apartment in my county and have to back to my parents house). Truly such a trope and I feel bad for her. Just wish I could warn her. She’ll learn… but good luck everyone getting a nanny job again. Any advice? I’m going to be kind and civil this could become my babies mom but I am just so betrayed and utterly heartbroken.

Do you ever feel like you could be ‘friendlier’

Now I don’t think I’m rude, I’m just an introvert. I wish I was more extroverted 😭

Just a couple examples. Mums at nursery I heard arranging a play date round one of their houses. My child is BOTH their friends too. But it’s fine.. I get don’t have to invite the whole class.

Then I go to a baby group (second baby) and a few of the mums met up for a Costa prior to start time, they mentioned how they text each other about something etc.

And I’m just like. Am I missing something? I have conversations with these ladies too, more so the baby group mums but still.

How do I become more extroverted?? I’m not lonely by any means. I have friends, I have family and a busy life. But still feel there’s always room for more..?

I don’t think my bf is in love with me anymore…

Okay so this year was my first Mother’s Day and he didn’t give me anything, he remembered that it was Mother’s Day really late even though the day prior I had told him in excitement that tomorrow was my first Mother’s Day. He didn’t do anything for valentines even though I kept telling him how much I wanted to go out for valentines since it was going to be our last valentine alone. (Because I just had a baby) he told me that he was going to take me out but didn’t, didn’t plan anything, didn’t go outside and pick a flower for me from the ground.. NOTHING.. I went through his phone recently without him knowing and he still has pictures of his ex wife.. he has more picture of her than me. He also still has naked photos of the girls he met before me. And they’re in his hidden file. Which I can’t access anymore.. idk what to do.. we have a 2 month old baby boy. When I was in labor he called his friend and told him to be there for his emotional support.. I felt like I didn’t have anyone because he was focused on other random things. He wanted to call his friend WHILE I WAS IN LABOR but I told him no that I needed him. He kept on telling me how he should go home and get everything ready.. so I let him after I gave birth. He took HOURS. Called his friend, his friend went over to “help him”. Fast forward 3 days later I get discharged from the hospital and come home to the house being completely the same as I left it.. Idk did he just not want to be there with me for me??? My family is 2,000+ miles away from so I felt like I had literally no one. I am 2 months postpartum and I keep thinking about all the things that he did and didnt do in the past and I’m getting angrier the more I think about it. I love him but I don’t think he loves me… I am currently going through postpartum depression and he barely helps me with the baby. He’s home ALL DAY EVERYDAY. When I take too long in the shower he gets upset. When I don’t clean the house he gets upset every little thing I do can trigger him if I don’t do it the way he likes. He calls me names.. yesterday we got into a fight and he pulled my hair while I was carrying the baby. He said “i could punch you right now”. I want to leave him but I don’t work and he’ll file for custody of our baby. And he’ll most likely will win. I feel so trapped. I feel so defeated.. I don’t want this life for my baby.

Masturbation

Hey mama, I think I have been masturbating a lot lately. I am in a distance relationship
I can go 5 times in a week. I dunno if it’s a bad thing or not
Please how often do y’all masturbate?

Group chat??

Who would be interested in a group chat??