Is anyone a health visitor - need advice 🙏🏼

I’m severely struggling as a single parent with no family or other parent.

My toddler is well turned out, cared for, eats well, bathed, cuddled, loved, has external social activities. I give my everything to my child. So they’re not lacking. They are safe.

But I’m not well. Mentally and physically.
I can’t wash, feed myself well, lack of happiness in any aspect. Exhausted. Falling behind on so many things apart from maintaining my daughter.
Going through some external life issues which are exasperating life in the last yr or so. I can’t cope, I’m so low. I’ve had worrying thoughts about maybe it’s best I end things with myself and our pets. And let my daughter be free of everything that’s going towards me failing to survive myself. So lost and falling apart physically and mentally.
I can’t let my daughter down as she’s so attached to me. But I can’t cope.
The toddler phase has ramped up and I don’t know how to deal with the meltdowns. I don’t know how to fix myself. I don’t want her to create a bad start to how she see’s life because I’m hanging by a thread. Sometimes (a lot lately) feel she deserves better.
There’s so much to unpack that I can’t verbalise.

appreciate people might reply and say you’re doing a good job, or it is hard, etc.

But I really need a health visitors opinion on what support I may get. Without them thinking I’m saying I can’t be her mother.

This isn’t coming out well, but I’m dying inside. I don’t want to wake up. I have to admit I can’t do this and she deserves a big family and not a mother drowning in this life

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I’m so sorry you are going through this, and just know you are incredibly brave for admitting that you are not coping. That is one step forward, I would suggest getting in touch with the Perinatal Mental Health team ASAP. They are amazing at dealing with PND. Stay strong mama ♥️

You are soo strong for recognising this in yourself! Can you see a GP? It depends if you want therapy, support, meds etc where you could go but a GP can refer you
Keep going, everything is a phase x

Im really sorry you are feeling so low but the fact that you have been carrying on for your daughter how strong you really are even if you don't feel it. You could always contact the health visitors and also self refer for some therapy.

Also remember to have easy days, dont put so much pressure on yourself. Its ok to have duvet days with little one having simple meals or even a picnic dinner whilst watching movies! Sometimes us mums need to learn to prioritise our needs to be able to meet the needs of our children.

Please feel free to message me privately, im always happy to talk. ❤️ xx

First thing Monday morning , go to your GP office for opening time, ask them to refer you straight away for talk therapy. Is your daughter entitled to free nursery hours, does she attend? Do you work?

In this instance it's not a health visitor, you need professional medical advice on how to put meaningful practices into place so you are able to care for yourself, you're obviously doing a cracking job with your child, but you are important too!

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