Mamas with depression, anxiety, and other mental health disorders

Is this costing me my marriage ?

Ladies I’m struggling. I’m a mama is 2 gorgeous boys they are my absolute everything but I can’t help but feel like there’s another little person missing from my life. I’ve been sure about having a 3rd since my youngest was about 6 months old (he’s now 2 and a half) my husband on the other hand says he absolutely doesn’t want any more kids and that I should be lucky we have 2 because as much as he loves our 2nd & wouldn’t change it for the world he didn’t really imagine having more than 1. When I ask why he doesn’t want to have another one he never has a good reason it’s always ‘because I just don’t’. I’ve been able to keep a lid on wanting a 3rd for a little while but recently we had a scare and thought I may have been pregnant but it looked like it was just a false positive & he was so relieved but it’s absolutely broken me. It made me realise that this is not something I’m going to be able to get over & it’s starting to make me resent my husband. I feel like he’s the only obstacle in my way and I get angry even just being in his space & I know that sounds awful but it’s true. I feel really sad all the time thinking about never having another baby and I’d go as far as to say it may be affecting my mental health & im worried that the resentment is just going to continue to grow to a point where it’s not fixable. He won’t even sit down and have a conversation about it & understand why it means so much to me. He just shuts me down and says I don’t want another baby and that’s final get over it or I’m not even having this conversation with you because you know how I feel.

How do I get over this or fix this before it’s too late ?

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Rant/vent. Pic of what I almost posted today.

I almost posted this today and honestly still debating on if I should. My ride or die, would be gay for, bestie of a lifetime, and is supposed to be the god mom to my daughter. Hasn’t spoken to me since the day my daughter was born because she doesn’t like my daughter’s father. Him and I went through a rough patch during my pregnancy. He has ptsd and shut down for basically my entire pregnancy. He admitted that he made a mistake and is/has been working on himself to be better. She put me in the position of it’s her or him. I made it a point that if he wanted to have a relationship with our daughter I am going to give him that chance to have one with our daughter. He has made huge progress and I still love him even if what he did wasn’t ok. My other set of people I wanted as god parents also haven’t talked me to because they weren’t informed on when I went into labor. They found out when I announced to everyone that I had my daughter and they got upset because they didn’t get a private message. Baby daddy was about to send a message but I hit send first. I’m just so overwhelmed and tired.

Yes my PPD is under control, yes my daughter and I are safe, yes I have the support of my baby daddy - his family - and my family, I’m just over people who think they know what’s best for my child even though they’ve not bothered to talk to me or see her.

Am I a bad SAHM for not taking my toddler out every day?

I constantly feel guilty for not doing daily outings with my toddler and spending more time at home. My neighbour makes me feel bad about it and has threatened to call cps. We have quiet mornings not to bother anyone. This generally includes numbers, colours, puzzles, sorting, crafts, etc. Then independent play so I can eat. He also has a toddler gym where he can climb and the noisier toys for later in the day. I spend a lot of time meal prepping. I'm also doing all the cleaning inside the house amongst other indoor tasks. I try to finish quickly or do everything in one day to have a walk after breakfast and a trip to the park after nap time the next day, but I get tired sometimes. We do go out every weekend to socialize and do family outings, but i generally aim for 3-4 hrs outside from Monday to Friday, although some weeks may be less. I'm wondering if I really am in the wrong here. Pls help !

My husband keeps putting me down cause I have Ex’s (it’s a long story)

What should I do. My husband and I I have two kids. I don’t keep secrets from him when he ask me a question I always answer him truthfully so he asked about my ex’s about two years ago I told him the truth I’ve dated 7 guys, slept with 4 of them. Those were relationships for me that most of them ended badly. They cheated and abused me so I left. One of them I found out cheated on me got another girl pregnant Christmas morning. So I’ve opened up to him about all of this. He’s also dated people he’s even told me story’s about the time him and his friend had a 3some with a girl at a party. His past never bothered me because it’s his past that had nothing to do with me but mine seems to bother him so much whenever we have an argument he’d call me a whore and all kinds of nasty names. Before he use to drink and come home and just insult me for hours and punch the wall. He stopped drinking and we’ve been good for about a year now but once in a while we’d have an argument he’d insult me again and now he’s telling me I never apologized for my past bout I’m not ashamed of it. I should be ashamed. I have two little kids I’m a sahm I’m in school rn I don’t know what to do.

feeling stuck?

anyone feeling like everyday is the same? i try get out the house everyday but some days i just feel so unbothered but i still have to feed the baby, dress her every hour because of her reflux and change her its a constant cycle, its just so tiring right now, I love my baby but everyday feels the exact same and its really just hitting me. My husband gets to do what he wants (yes he works) but he has the freedom to do what he wants, whereas me i cant because im with the baby 24/7 theres days where im lucky if i use the toilet more than twice. its getting really exhausting, when does it get better or does it?

8 month old prefers dad

I’m starting to feel like my baby hates me, he always smiles at dad but hardly at me. Google says he’ll prefer his primary care giver which is me but he doesn’t and I don’t know what I’m doing wrong

Husband and baby boys(long vent)

Hi all.
I'm a ftm,currently 6,5 months postpartum with twin boys.
I've posted before,ranting about my husband.
I'm just enraged and annoied with him constantly!!!!
He never does any housechores with the excuse of being extremely busy with work,if he will do couple of dishes at night,he will tell me..there u go..i did your dishes for you..if he ever decides to fold any laundry it will be at 2am waking everyone up!
I am being very patient but because of him I cry and cry and mentally I am not ok!
3 months postpartum he told me to just get over it and be the strong woman I always was!!
After an accident I had with one of the babies falling of bed,and feeling all the guilt inside,he started screaming what terrible mum I am,baby might die from internal bleeding or have brain injury.(very reassuring,right?)
Thankfully I stayed calm and checked him and he was good.
Soo many fights!I can't take it anymore😭
The only time he watches the babies are from 8pm to 1am so I can rest!!
I told him I don't know how long I can do this.
He started screaming that divorce is out of the window,because he wants our kids to be raised by both parents together because he believes they gonna have issues if we get divorced.
I explained to him..its better seperared and happy and give all the love to our kids than being miserable,sad and fighting-screaming all the time.
And today one of our fights was because I asked him nicely if he could try to pee sitting sometimes so he doesn't make a mess on the floor tiles and on the mat.
And I mentioned I would like us to show our kids maybe peeing sitting??
He got furious..only girls pee sitting down.
I tried to meet him in the middle to maybe show them in the future both ways and they can use whichever they prefer..and obviously he got angry again suggesting they will have their boy bathroom and I will have a girl bathroom.
And after all this he called me Hitler!
I hate him!
He makes me feel like crazy,like I am always the problem!
And I'm sooo tiredd!!
I have to remind myself to be strong for my babies but I'm falling apart inside😭😭
Am I overreacting?
Also,boy mums,what way did u show your boys to pee?