Validate me or give me advice pls

Okay okay. I’m 12 days postpartum. My daughter was iugr and was losing too much weight in the hospital. The doctors had me pumping and supplementing with donor milk/formula. Going home, I followed their advice and continued to breastfeed, then pump, and give her formula after to continue weight gain. I’m exhausted and have been crying through most of the past couple days. My girl will stay latched for hours if i let her and she falls asleep every 5 minutes and then still be hungry after. My supply cannot keep up with her hunger either. My mental health has not been the best the past few days and I decided today that we are just going 100% formula. There’s relief knowing I get my body back and i can resume my adhd meds. I know this is best for me and my mental health, but I’m filled with enormous guilt… Like I’m letting her down and i didnt try hard enough. 🥲

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Girl, whatever is best for you is best for baby 💕 triple feeding is difficult and I have felt your pain. When you struggle baby feels it. You can’t care for baby if you aren’t caring for yourself. I understand the mom guilt as I have had to make this decision too and it was the best thing that I could have done. Rest assured that you are doing the best you can with what you have.

Is it just the breastfeeding thats causing you to struggle mentally? Maybe you need more support? More sleep, more self care time🥰 is there family or your partner you could ask for more support from? Then breastfeeding wouldn't feel so defeating and overwhelming.

Nothing you are going through right now is easy! Having a newborn is HARD. Being a first time mom is HARD. Geting used to breastfeeding is HARD. Worrying about if your baby is getting enough food is HARD!!

My baby has a recessed chin and refuses to latch and I don’t pump enough so we have to supplement with formula. I also found out I have postpartum depression this week so I know the feeling. My doctor and every lactation consultant I saw told me that you’re not failing by feeding formula. Baby needs you to be your best so you can be there for them.

Don’t beat yourself up. Fed is best and she needs you in good mental condition more. That’s the truth.

You’re doing a fantastic job mama! Things won’t always feel this way 💗

I’m doing triple feeding. It’s literally the most exhausting feeding style. So don’t beat yourself up. I felt guilty too about the formulas but u get your body back and a fed baby is a happy baby.

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Hi guys,
We have a 22 month old who still wakes once or twice a night. She's always been a poor sleeper, so this is actually a big improvement. My husband and I take turns with night wake-ups, but lately he's started taking ages to respond when it's his turn, and it's driving me mad.
I'll hear our daughter crying and getting more upset while he just lies there watching the monitor, then goes downstairs for a drink or faffs about before finally going to her. By then, what could have been a quick cuddle and dummy often turns into a much longer ordeal because she's fully awake and distressed.
His reasoning is that she's older now and he wants to give her a chance to resettle herself. I understand that when she's calm and just stirring and she has been known to do this on occasion put herself back to sleep. But he's also doing it when she's actively crying and calling for us. To me, that's very different and a sign she needs comfort.
The other issue is that once I'm awake, I struggle to get back to sleep, whereas he can fall asleep instantly. The whole point of taking turns is that the other parent gets a chance to rest, but I'm often lying there awake listening to her cry while he waits. I’m then up for hours.

A few times I've ended up going in to sort her myself because I can't bear listening to it any longer. Plus I want to get it done so I can try get back to sleep. I’m so tired and it’s adding real negative vibes in the night because I wanna scream at him. I’m so resentful towards him by the morning i practically don’t even wanna talk to him.

I’ve tried to talk to him but it’s falling on deaf ears. I need advice or opinions.

Is this normal? 😔

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I reported this to the hospital she passed away at… My family thinks I did the wrong thing by reporting this before the baby was buried and that I should’ve waited because “god was going to handle it” or some other bullshit excuses… I reported it on Friday, 4 days after she passed away.. My family is ignoring me and calling me mean names and telling me it’s not my business to do what I did but I don’t see how I’m wrong because this is a baby that lost her life due to unsafe cosleeping. She was suffocated by her dad in both of their sleep from what I’m being told and they told the hospital she was suffocated in her crib by a blanket. My thing is why lie? I wouldn’t lie about this if I was innocent.. I guess I’m ranting because I’m hurt my family isn’t on my side in reporting this… I loved my family so much and now it’s just me, my man, and our child..

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