I miss morning
I miss my mornings, I miss waking up making a cup of tea, sit in silence or watch something good. I didn't realize i missed it till, last week. My girl normally wakes up at 7am, i woke up at 7 expecting her to be up. She was not. So I decided to make tea. I was making tea and could not help,but to enjoy making the tea in silence and take my time. I normally do it in a hurry cause my girl needs me. I finish making the tea. I sit on the couch and I then realize how quite it is. I actually laugh and was surprised to have this time to myself. I then decided to watch a movie. Was so excited, only 10 minutes into the movie and my girl woke up. I was happy to see her, she then asked to play in the backyard, and i felt sad. After that just been feeling sad and mad in the morning. I miss not being asked questions, is what ur doing mommy? Play mommy? Book? Even if i tell her to play it will be for just 5 minutes that she'll play by herself. She will only leave me alone if am cleaning,but I don't want to clean the moment i wake up. I just want hour of morning silence. I feel selfish,but I can't help,but to miss. I love my girl,but I miss my mornings
Constantly feel like im parenting wrong
It's one of those days where I'm in a bit of a slump. Lately I've been extremely discouraged because people have been overtly observant and critical of my decision to be a SAHM. My child is happy and he isn't missing anything, but regardless, I'm starting to feel less confident in my decision.
I'm curious to know what the week looks like for you guys, realistically, if you dont mind sharing 😭 I know we're all learning on the job, so I'd like to know what's working for everyone and maybe try some new stuff out in our routine.
Does your partner actually listen when you go to share things with them? Especially when u are clearly happy/excited about it.
I always have to listen to his “Ted talks” about AI shit for hours everyday but anytime I go to share something new I want to do with the kids (a baby disco rave thing on our daughter 1st bday lol) and was told he doesn’t care about “that shit”, it’s like this for most stuff even with my health he acts like he knows more about my body than me or the doctors because ai and google (Eds, lupus,mcas, autism etc) I just never feel heard and when I try to bring up my feeling, its usually a combo of this conversation never happened, or it’s an immediate argument or “that’s your problem to deal with not mine” because my feelings got hurt and didn’t control it, which is hard when words make ur heart crack sometimes. More I write the more I feel like this man doesn’t even like me
Mother in law at it again
So I have really terrible in laws, I’ve dealt with it for almost 14 years. We have 3 kids- 10,7, and 2. They’re never involved, like we have to beg them to want to be in our kids lives. And last night my father in law said they want to take the kids to the beach, under one condition. My 2 year old cannot come. They say she’s too young and just can’t “deal” with it. I didn’t respond because I don’t even know what to say. I know what I should say, but it would be starting a war. Any advice? My husband is also helpless. He’s so numb to them, and will not rock the boat.