Would you leave, or am I giving up too easily?
Need some honest advice from other mums because I genuinely feel broken.
I’ve been with my partner for 4 years and we have a 3-month-old baby together. I don’t feel like his girlfriend anymore, I just feel like someone he lives with.
I’ve barely been anywhere since having the baby, yet he’s been out for the football, the pub, getting his haircut, went out all day yesterday after work until late saying it was “one drink”, is out again Wednesday , and already has more plans this week. I feel like I’m always at home with the kids while he carries on as normal.
We recently had a huge argument after I found links to OnlyFans creators in his browser history. Whether people agree or not, I see that as cheating because he’s lusting after other women, and his explanations have kept changing, so I’ve completely lost trust.
The biggest thing is how he treats me. If I cry, he ignores me, walks past me, tells me I’m crying “crocodile tears” or shuts the door in my face. I don’t feel loved, wanted or cared about at all. I’ll be talking to him and he’ll just be on his phone, it’s like talking to a brick will.
Yesterday I told him I wanted to end the relationship because I’m so unhappy. His response was that he’d rather keep doing this because he doesn’t want to only see the kids every other day. It felt like he wanted to keep the relationship for the children, not because he wanted me, he will refuse to let me end it as In because of the kids so I’m in this and miserable, every time I explain what’s wrong or try have a convo he goes “oh I’m ignoring u till you’ve had ur episode and calmed down “ imagine trying to break up with someone and everytime it’s like they refuse 😂??
Need advice pleaseee
First time Mum’s
What does everyone’s days look like?
For us it’s nappy, feed, cuddle, sleep (mostly contact naps). I still struggle to shower and eat when I’m on my own. We don’t go out anywhere other than the garden, and I don’t have the mental capacity to play with him very much (which I feel awful about). I’ve tried using a carrier to get things done around the house or to make my lunch, but I find it kills my back after 5/10 minutes. Losing the will to live 😣