Im struggling
Im really struggling lately
I have a beautiful 1 year old little girl who brightens my day but I struggle everyday, I cant seem to keep on top of the house work, I worry about money as my partner has put himself into debt trying to get our house finished (its a fixer upper) we put so much energy and money into getting things finished for my daughters 1st birthday last month.
I dont work as i have bad issues and want to help financially but I dont know how to.
I rarely leave my house as I dont drive and I dont have anything close by, to get to places I'd have to get a bus which takes about 45-1 hour to get to anywhere 🙁
I have no friends, I thought i made some mummy friends but now i barely hesr from them except when I message first and I understand we all get busy with our babies and life. I just have no one to talk to, my partner works hard for us but when he comes home hes exhausted and most of the time just sits on his phone
I thought id be going to more baby groups and meeting up with other mums but there is literally nothing in my area, no coffee shops just houses and fields and i didnt think I would struggle this much.
We recently had to rehome our dog and that put a little bit of tension on our relationship as my partner misses our dog luckily we was able to rehome him to his mum so we still get to see him but my partner says almost everyday how he wants odin to come home but that cant happen.
I am getting to the point of I am not enjoying my life even though i have this beautiful little girl and want to start trying for another baby
I just dont know what to do anymore
Is it all women or just me?!!
This is a vent post so I figured I’d hide out- my family and I leave tomorrow for a Fourth of July vacation. One that I am very much looking forward too, as it’ll be our first as a family of three now! That being said we have pets and had to hire a sitter for them, because the sitters will be staying here I was mortified to think they would be staying in my house all dirty. So, here I am up at 2am, no closer to going to bed while my husband sleeps soundly. His reasoning? He doesn’t think they will care if the house is dirty- and while he could be right, my mind immediately goes to the comfortability of a clean house. Imagine staying at a strangers house and it’s disgusting?!!! You’d be scared to touch ANYTHING, I don’t want anyone to feel that way in my house!! I was okay with cleaning, I just wish he had the same mindset as mine. To recognize that it is a kind gesture to ensure the person taking care of your fur babies has a clean place to sleep. And if not that- at least he could care about just having a clean house and wanting to help!! My aunt says not everyone is like me and that I was raised by a single mother who was a maid during my childhood, so of course a clean house is important to me. Meanwhile, he had a stay at home mom who was able to find the time to clean up after her kids. Am I overreacting or just turning into my mother 😂