I’m ready to cheat

I actually really relate to the part about being stuck in your masculine. I’m bisexual too and was with women for longer than I’ve been with men. For me though, I’ve realised there’s a difference between questioning who you’re attracted to and feeling exhausted from always having to be in “doing” mode. I think a lot of mums end up carrying the mental load, making every decision and keeping everything together, and it leaves you craving a space where you can be in your feminine more - to feel looked after, safe and able to soften. Whether that’s what’s happening for you or whether you’re realising you genuinely prefer women, only you can know, but I definitely understood what you meant by that part.

Why cheat when you can get a divorce and move on. If you already have these thoughts, looks like your mind is made.

You should be ready to finish the relationship, not cheat!
It’s not his fault that you realised that you prefer women.
Cheat is never ok