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Texas

Upset

Is it okay for me to be upset again and again? Me and my bf do not live together and during my pregnancy he was barley there he would stay out late for hours playing volleyball and barley text me he even went out of the country for two months and during that time I was having constant pain attacks and again barley texted me and no calls. I definitely thought about ending it but I love him. I thought after our baby was here it would be okay. When she was born he was here for a week and we talked he said he wouldn’t be out late like he had been. I’m not working rn so he takes care of us. But I am with our six week old daughter every single day in the same room and house I don’t get a break and I get upset when he visits and can barely help me when I’m tired he gets to work and I understand that but he then goes out with his friends late and hangs out and still plays for hours. When I went to visit for a week I was stuck at that house seven day barley went out maybe to eat or the store but we didn’t hang out or go to the park but he doesn’t that when I’m not there I feel like the only parent I feel like he had a whole other life and my heart it breaks cause he doesn’t talk to me. When he visits he leaves the next day and will hangout with his friends as soon as he gets back I feel like we don’t even exist like thin air. My heart really hurts and yet I still love him so much.