FTM AND LOSING MY MIND
I feel like I’m losing my mind, and I honestly don’t know if it’s just the hormones or if something is actually wrong, so I’d really like some outside perspective.
I gave birth six weeks ago and had a very traumatic delivery. My daughter spent time in the NICU, and we ended up staying in the hospital for eight days. It was an incredibly stressful and emotional experience.
My family came all the way from another country to be here with me, and they’ll be staying for a month. Since giving birth, I’ve found myself becoming increasingly irritated with my mother-in-law. She comes over every single day, even if it’s only for an hour, and she constantly wants to hold the baby. She lets her fall asleep on her chest and says things like, “You’re mine.” Every day she wants to come over, and it’s starting to feel overwhelming.
Maybe she’s doing this because my family is staying with us, but I’m honestly exhausted by it. Everything she does seems to get under my skin. My parents are very respectful of both me and the baby. They give me space, support me, and let me take the lead as Porter’s mother. But when my mother-in-law is here, she always wants to take over and hold the baby.
What bothers me even more is that she seems to think I should be doing housework while she takes care of my baby. I also found out that she had considered coming over in the morning and taking the baby while I was sleeping so she could look after her. That made me incredibly angry.
I’ve been so stressed by all of this that my milk supply seems to have dropped over the last few days, and it breaks my heart that I’m dealing with this stress over my own baby.
Has anyone else experienced something like this? Am I overreacting, or are these feelings normal?