I’m I wrong or

I think the “gay sex” search tells us everything you need to know here.

Girl! You NEVER know what men are thinking. And searches can be so random. I mean my searches be crazy sometimes and have nothing to do my likes or dislikes but just my curiosity. It’s men’s insecurities that play the larger role. He may feel inadequate, he may question his size, performance or stamina. I’m plus size. My ex once told me that his former roommate wouldn’t date plus size women because he said he’d have to work out. His roommate was a slim small guy. Please don’t internalize this. It has nothing to do with you, it’s all him! The right man will see you as a goddess! Because that is what you are. Hold your head up, be confident in yourself and don’t let him dictate how you feel about yourself. You are beautiful, sexy and all that!

You mention “skinny women” search does he have an issue with your size? Sounds like he’s bi or at least gets off on watching other men. I truly believe sexuality is a spectrum so that’s something to be discussed. However if he’s not attracted to you then he needs to say that. Leading you on isn’t fair

Men often send each other weird shit just because they think its funny so I wouldn't read too much into the gay sex stuff but if you feel like he doesn't want you maybe talk about it feeling neglected is the worst

When you say he was disgusted to go down on you, are we talking like he was mean about it? Or just declined?

I’m curious if he’s leading you on all day, then handling himself with porn. Whatever category that may be fancies him right then, ugh. But, Then not available for you once the time is right because he’s already “done”.


I could be completely off though, just a thought.